An apology letter to my future soulmate

Day 13 guys. Whooooo!!!!!!!Lol.. This challenge should have been done like ages ago but whatever. So anyway, today I am supposed to issue a public apology to whoever so being the emotional nut that I am, I decided to write one to the man that would be lucky enough to have me and vice versa.

Hi honey, baby, lover, sugar, darling, love of my life, bobo to shan,

Lol. I don’t know which one you would like because I haven’t met you yet so I just gave a variety of names. The fact that I am going to marry you or I am married to you must mean that I saw something special in you and I must have thought things through. You know me well and you know that I can be very silly and act on impulse without thinking but there are matters such as marriage that I take very seriously and I have to think and think and be at least 95 per cent sure before I jump into it. I say 95 per cent because honestly, no one can ever be too sure and I like to see that extra 5 per cent as a sacrifice that I am willing to give. Therefore, the fact that I sacrificed my 5 per cent of uncertainty must mean that I love you more than you know.

Thinking in advance, I feel you must have been crazy picking me as your girl for life. I say this because I know how much of a handful I can be. I come with a lot of complaints, a lot of tears and a maze of emotions. I can be smiling one minute and the next, I am gazing into thin air with tears in my eyes. However, I am really hoping that its not as bad in the future as I am imagining in my head. I know, that sometimes in your head, you may feel like I am too much but you choose to stay because you love me.

I am therefore apologising for my behaviour. I am apologising for the fact that I use past experiences to judge who you truly are to me. I am sorry that I try to push you away over and over again when I know in my heart of hearts that you are not going anywhere. I am sorry that I bore you with complaints of nothing in particular.

I am sorry that you hate the music on my phone but I still insist on playing it out loud without a care in the world. I am sorry that I don’t know how to take the best pictures but you still smile and put them on whatever social networks is the ‘thing’ then. I am sorry that I can be so slow at cooking but I am hoping to change that..Lol. I am sorry that I never let you watch the movies you choose. I am sorry that you get to sit through a Bruno Mars concert with me when you don’t like him as much. (Well I am seriously hoping that I am wrong about this one and that you do like him). I am sorry for the times I yell at you during those certain times when I’m having hormonal issues when you don’t deserve it at all.

However, you know I love you more than anything in the world and in another life, I’ll pick you over and over again. Thank you for your love and your understanding everyday and I am hoping that we will face the trials and tribulations of life together with our heads held high.

I love you bubba, cupcake, chocolate pumpkin, sugar banana, My man……in the future. Hahaha.

There you have it guys. Its a little cheesy I know but I hope you guys can accept it and love it the way I do..teeheeheee

Love,

Dolly.

Xo!

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I miss….

Hi guys,

So today is day 12. I am just glad to be moving forward in this challenge. Today, I am supposed to talk about something I miss so sit back, relax and read.

So I have spoken about this like so much and you would think my answer would change about it but it still hasn’t. I have always been a big music person. I was born into it. I don’t mean like my parents were artists or anything but from an early age, I have just been into it. My dad always played the key board in the morning and I remember having a teacher teaching me ‘do re mi’ before I really knew my ‘a b c’s’. I went to music school when I was about 6 years old and was there for about 3 years before I went to secondary school. I took it for granted. I loved playing music but my teacher was like really tough. Going into secondary school, I was sort of drawn to music, maybe because what I was been taught in the first year, I already knew. So I kind if identified with it.

I was close to my music teacher. He was like my guardian. I started playing for the band. Might seem lame but I assure you guys, it was like one of the coolest things ever. The coolest people were in the band. All the head boys that passed through my school were members of the band. The guys that I was afraid of were in the band. Some of the senior girls were there as well. It was amazing. However, my teacher was tough but he got results. His toughness made the band amazing. Rehearsals could go far into the night. Being a part of that drained my energy especially because we had to juggle school work and music work. I will not lie. As much as I loved being a part of the band, I also hated it as much. My teacher was an amazing man. He knew his music but he could say the meanest things but it was to get the best out of us. However, I didn’t understand that so instead of being motivated, I felt put-down.

I played clarinet but I wasn’t the best because I really didn’t want to be. It was too much pressure and I didn’t have time to practise as much. I took it for granted. I was someone that could give the life history of Handel straight from my head but along the way, I lost it. I lost my ability to play any of the instruments I learned. I still know some minor things but I am not as good as I want to be. I have lost everything and it sucks to me because I feel like I have lost a greater part of my life and I miss it and I am working on getting my abilities back. I miss being able to rehearse and I just miss it. 

So basically, story of my life. 

Love,

Dolly.

Xo!

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Good Girl

Hi guys,

 So today is day 11. I am supposed to sell myself to you guys in 10 words or less. I don’t know how to say it but I’ll let Christina say it for ya.

This is like super funny to me because I do not know how to compliment myself but there is one thing I know..*singing* I am a good girllllllllllll*

 

Love,

Dolly.

Xo!


 

Embarrassing moment – Funny Story

Hi guys,

So today is Day 10 of the challenge and I am to spill my most embarrassing moment. Lol. Really? I am supposed to portray myself as a silly nilly as if you guys didn’t see me as worse already. Lool. Anyway if you know me well, you will know that I get embarrassed a lot because I am clumsy like that. It’s not even intentional but I get embarrassed like so much, it’s not even cute. There are so many moments, I can’t even remember them because there are too embarrassing that I don’t want to remember them but I dug and dug deep into my memory for one for you guys and I got it so, here goes…

So, when I was in secondary school, yh, I wasn’t the coolest chick. Being cool was like being close to seniors and shit and I was more in tune with my mates and seniors didn’t really dig my style, lol, so I wasn’t really close to many of them. The senior guys especially were like terrifying sort of; not terrifying but you dare not cross their path or mess with them so you can imagine that I was shy of them. There was this particular senior guy that everyone was afraid of because basically he was a bad boy. And it so happens, that he was my school mama’s boyfriend. 

However, I made up my mind that no matter what, I was not going to cross this guy’s path. I was going to make sure he didn’t even know I existed. Yh well, lets just say that prayer didn’t exactly leave the room. So, like most nigerian boarding schools, my school didn’t let us bring in provisions or even cash but some people snuck them in anyway. But, you could imagine that if the opportunity came to get some goodies, people will be excited. Well, there was some sort of sports day for the primary school and so the ice cream truck came in and a senior girl sent me to get her like 3. So I went, as a good junior girl, got her the ice cream and I was walking back to give them back to her. So, I’m walking and I’m walking and I see this group of senior guys. I was just going to hide my face and keep walking. But someone thought that was a bad idea.

This guy – that I said I was never going to cross his path – walked towards me, grabbed her favourite one from my hand and walked back to his boys. So, I am just standing there because I am shocked and because I want to believe that he is just joking. So I am smiling like a fool. Not saying anything but waiting for this ‘person’ to give me back the ice cream. And it’s not like the senior that sent me was the nicest one around. So I’m waiting and waiting and this guy refuses to give me back. His guys are like telling him ‘Guy, give this girl back’ and he isn’t even answering them. So one of them asks me ‘Who sent you?’ And I say ‘(name withdrawn)’ and they are like ‘Ahhhh….Guy give this girl back. The babe will kill her if she doesn’t bring it back.’ My guy refuses oh. In fact his anger is aggravated that his mates were telling him to give me back. So you won’t believe what this guy did. He opened it and stepped on it. If he had eaten it, it would have hurt less because ill be like ‘this guy is just hungry’ but he didn’t. So in my mind, I’m like ‘someone definitely sent this guy to me.’ 

His friends are alarmed as well and so one of them just tells me. ‘You know what, just go. Sorry ehn.’ Oh my Gosh!. I just start crying because I don’t know what to do and I don’t have any cash to even go back and buy another one. I am so upset at this point, I go to her room, still crying, hoping to give her some kind of explanation. But she isn’t there. So I just drop the remaining ice creams on her bed, forgetting that ice cream melts and it would wet her bed. But, I am like really upset over the last ice cream that this guy destroyed. Anyway, I go around looking for her and looking for a way to get cash but I don’t get. So, one of her girl mates sees me crying and she asks what is wrong. I tell her and she’s like ‘Don’t worry. I’ll talk to her. So I feel better.

The next day, however, the girls in her house are having a meeting in my class and I sort of walk in to get something from my desk and then she turns on me and she’s like ‘What happened yesterday?’ And I start smiling like a fool because that is how I can deal with the situation. So I kind of start talking ‘Well…Senior (name withdrawn).., It was this guy…’ And she interrupts me and starts saying ‘I do not know what is going on between you and (name withdrawn)….that you gave him my ice cream. I don’t know if he is your boyfriend or something…’ And at this point, I am smiling more because I am embarrassed and because I am upset. She knows he ain’t my boyfriend so in my mind, I’m like ‘Whatchu talking bout, Willis? You know he ain’t my boyfriend and why would I give him your ice cream anyway?’..Anyway she continues…’..and to top it, you kept the ice cream on my bed and it got wet so now when people sit on my bed, they ask me if I had an accident on the bed which is not cool..and just get out..’ So everyone starts laughing at me. I feel so embarrassed and I get teary eyed and I feel like removing her eyes but she’ll remove mine before I even get close to hers. Lol..

Anyway it’s been so long that this happened…like 6/7 years but it’s still annoying..Lool. So guys, hope you loved this one. this is a true story. Things I do for this challenge. Lol.

 

Love,

Dolly.

Xo!

 

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Moments Shmoments

Hey mi loves,

Today is Day 9 of the challenge guys. We are moving forward. Finally. So, today, the challenge is to give you guys a photo of a moment in my day and I am more than excited to do so. I am having a good day and I am glad to share a piece of it with you.

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So basically, I am at a radio station called HFM. I am having a week’s work experience here and it is absolutely amazing. I get to work with guys at the news section. I get to talk on the radio. It is really cool and I love it. Maybe, later in life I’ll be a radio show host. Just maybe. Lol.

Love,
Dolly.
Xo!

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Advice from a non-expert

Hi guys,

A lovely good morning to you all. I decided to continue the 31 day challenge from where I stopped. I decided that there was nothing that was going to stop me from completing it. I am on day 8 today and I am to just give a lovely piece of advice to those that honour me by reading my posts. Here goes.

My life isn’t a perfect one. In fact I have made more mistakes than maybe 10 people joined together. However, in these 17 years that I have lived on earth, I have learnt one thing. ‘Your personality is your best fragrance’. Everyone loves to smell good and that’s why we want to get good fragrances that someone can perceive from a mile away. However, you can own 30 bottles of the best fragrances in this world but if you don’t put on a good personality, then I’m sorry, but others will perceive you as nothing but toilet water.

In life, a good personality is very important. Behaving proud, rude, nasty will not get you very far. Now I know that some people have gotten to the top regardless of their ugly personalities but after all said and done, they do not have real people around them. They will not able to point out their real friends.

Like I said, I am not perfect and it just sounds like I have been blabbing about fragrances and colognes but my point is true. From what I have seen and what I have heard, I know that a good personality is everything. I am not saying be a people pleaser or let people walk all over you;No. Just be a person that others will find relatable and others will find appealing. Everything else falls under because you will have real people around you. Be who you are and don’t go against your set principles. I have also learnt that people respect those that follow their principles. In this crazy world, it is easy to let go of principles because of what others might think or how fast the world is changing. Just always remember why you kept them in the first place. Keep them with confidence and with time, others will respect and have confidence in you.

Half of all I have written, I am still trying to learn. I am no expert and as I give this advice, I also give myself. At the end of the day though, being you is all that matters.

Love,

Dolly.

Xo!

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Time Waits Not

Hey blovers,
So I woke up early this morning to an email I received from one of the blogs I read. The owner of the blog is a Dominican guy I think and I like reading the things he writes because he is in his 30’s, religious and he writes based on experiences and visions for the future.
Anyway, he posted something today that literally touched my heart. He wrote about how he had spoken to his cousin on Tuesday evening. They had spoken about going on like a weekend retreat and he was looking forward to it. However, early on Wednesday morning, he received the tragic news that his cousin had passed; the very same cousin that he had spoken to the night before. I felt sad for him and I couldn’t imagine how hard it is to lose someone so abruptly without any form of warning as if losing someone wasn’t enough. I started to think of how the other guy was making plans with his cousin not knowing he was going to die so soon. Made me realise that we, as humans are very oblivious as to what is going to happen in the very next second. Only God knows tomorrow.
As such, we need to keep those we love so much very close to us and live everyday like its our last. We need the grace of God because His grace alone can assure us of a bright tomorrow. All the money in the world cannot buy time and we would not carry the material stuff we have gained here to the grave. So, we all need to realise that we are God’s special angels whom He sent to earth to make Him proud and the life he gave us is borrowed. We have to make the best of it because time is short. I am no expert. As I am speaking to you, I am also speaking to myself because I know that I need to also learn to make the best use of our time. So guys, we have a race to run. God expects us to be winners at the end. Let us run this race with pride, patience, faith, hope and above all, Love.

A link to Jay’s post: http://startwithjay.wordpress.com/2013/08/08/when-later-turns-into-never/

Love,
Dolly.
Xo!

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