I decided to share more of myself on this blog and to be open and honest about myself and the things that I am going through. I have never been a very open person so it’s a challenge to me but I am trying.
Anyway, let’s get to it. Guys have you ever heard of PMS?! If you haven’t, it means Pre-menstrual syndrome and my dears, it is very very real. Lol. I never thought it was that serious but this last one showed me pepper. I felt tired, irritable, annoyed and the worst part of it all was the breakout of emotions. I was watching ‘Grown ups’ and I started crying. Who cries when watching Grown ups for Christ sake? And to make it worse, it didn’t just stop there, it morphed into post-menstrual syndrome and it hasn’t been pretty at all.
I cannot even begin to mention how much I have cried in the past few days and for no reason. Well, there have been reasons but they are things that I could have other wiser handled without crying. I have been going crazy. It ain’t easy being a woman. Why do we have it hard guys? The one I had yesterday was pretty bad and I really didn’t know how to talk about it so I just decided to write it when the emotional cloud decided to take a vacation and float on. Lol..I don’t even know if that made any sense.
Moving onnnnn. I decided to start my 2014 with a new look. I don’t know what my fascination with my hair is. Maybe it’s because I have never really had good hair and so I just start experimenting with it even though I am always afraid of how it will turn out. I remember a time when I did blonde braids. I don’t know why I did it. How can a black girl do blonde braids? But I conquered all the looks and fear..lool..and I managed to have it on for a while. Then I took the biggest risk of my life last year when I decided to cut my hair. I was so scared but I knew that if I didn’t cut my hair, I won’t be happy cause my hair was a mess. It was okay..for a while. It got annoying though but I still like it. So, I decided to unleash my inner Rihanna and I did this:
AS A BAWSE!
Lol….if I tell you that I was not afraid of how this will turn out, I’ll be lying through my teeth. However, I think I look okay…don’t I? Lool..why am I making such a big deal out of hair? Well I guess I am doing so because I have never been one to take such huge risks but here I am…Taking risks in love, looks..and all of that..and I think it’s bringing out a bit of that inner confidence that I didn’t even know that I had.
Speaking of hair, while I was in the salon trying to make it look awesome, I decided to start reading ‘The Perks of Being a Wallflower’ by Stephen Chbosky. Early bird!! Right? Lool I know. Well, truth is I was never planning to read it. I am the kind of person that gets dis-interested by stuff when they are too too overhyped or if the people hyping them are annoying about it. (I tend to fall in this category). The only times I get interested is if I was interested in it before anyway or if something touches my heart to give it a try. For instance, I just made up my mind not to watch Gossip Girl because the hype was annoying me but I decided to give Revenge a try even though I had already decided against it. Let’s just say I got intrigued by the name and decided to watch it and I love it. Anyway, I digress.
Anyway, this book was a book I wasn’t planning on reading and the movie was not one that I planned on watching. However, I was in WHSmith on Christmas Eve and I just saw it and I guess the Christmas Spirit around thought it’s a book I’d love and I do. Anyway, I am still on it but while reading it in the salon, I came across a quote that just grabbed my attention.
We accept the love we think we deserve
I am not sure what it was about it but it just got me someplace deep and I still haven’t figured out the words to say about it. But when I do, I’ll let you know.
I talk a lot and I say rubbish. It’s part of what I do guys and who I am. Lool. I am still not sure if it’s a good thing or a bad thing but I sure hope if won’t land me in trouble. Lol
Thanks for reading guys.
So much loveeeee….