Dolly Writes

Journey of a growing woman

Month: March, 2014

A New Day

I hear the bell toll

Cling-Clang, Cling-Clang

Signifying the dawn of a new day

A new life, a clean slate

Another 24 hours

A time to begin again and try and 

Forget about our yesterdays

If it only it were that simple

To wake up and not deal with the issues of yesterday

But the reality is that we still have to continue on with the leftovers of our yesterday.

The pain continues

But it becomes easier to live with

With each passing day

The toll of the bell makes me happy

Reminds me that at some point,

The pain will become nothing but a blur

And living with it will be much more easier

And love grows or lessens with each passing day

Strength grows or lessens too

Depends on who bears the armour

I hear the sounds of birds chirping

It’s the sound of a new day

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The Universe Speaking

Lately, I have been going through some shit and when I mean shit I mean like the deepest deepest form of pain and betrayal but you know I’m still alive.

I have gone through so many emotions in my life – pain, anger, happiness, rage, betrayal – You name it, I’ve been through it. The one that I never thought I would experience though is the feeling where you don’t feel. Too much? Let me break it down

I haven’t been feeling anything lately. My feelings at the moment are dead. I try to respond to stuff in a certain way but I find out that I can’t respond to them in the way that I want to respond to them. Okay that was a mouthful but you know what I mean.

Anyway, sometime ago, I was going through my IG and I saw this picture that was posted by this amazing guy I follow called thealphatalk. I’ll share the picture with you guys.

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Looking at it…you might not understand it and that’s why I’m going to share what he said underneath. He said:
What most of us don’t know or understand (or some just don’t care about) is that we are all “human radio towers”. We transmit “signals” through our thoughts and feelings. Have you ever been thinking about someone and the person either contacts you at the same EXACT time or they tell you that they were just thinking about you?
Coincidence DOES NOT exist. It only exists for people who don’t understand GOD and how the Universe works. Another example, have you ever been feeling bad about something or someone and you either read something or hear something that relates to your current situation? Nope, that was MEANT FOR YOU to notice. Once you understand that the Universe works in conjunction with your own thoughts and feelings, you’ll notice IMMEDIATE changes in your life. If you think that there is something wrong , you’re already giving negative feelings (sending negative vibrations) instead of reaearching. – P.S. If you’re reading this, this was meant for YOU

So, when I read this like about a month ago, lots of things began to make sense to me and I started to understand so many things that I never understood before.

I believe that God made the universe available to us as a means of communicating with us.

That being said, last night while I was looking for something to eat in the kitchen, I decided to listen to music.

And you know how I said, my feelings have been sort of dead lately? Well, I believe the universe was just trying to provide me with the ability to get a little sense of how I was feeling since I couldn’t sense then anymore.

Every single song I listened to was just interpreting a little part of how I felt and I just thought that it was amazing.

Also, earlier today I was taking a nap and I was dreaming about someone and the person I was dreaming about called me like in the middle of the dream and it was pretty amazing.

I guess what I’m trying to say is that sometimes the universe tries to communicate with us by sending us signals and trying to be one with us. We need to understand that nothing ever really happens by chance. Things happen cause they are meant to happen and we just got to accept it.

18 and learning…..

There are so many things that have gone on in my life since the last time I posted and now. It’s amazing how I am still standing and strong. I have really surprised myself to be honest. Anyway, these are things I’ll share later when I am ready.

Today, I found this little book in my room that I had when I was in secondary school. Its a tiny ‘Hannah Montana’ notepad that was given to me by a junior friend of mine. I can’t exactly remember why she gave me but I know I really appreciated it at that time. I am so sure she doesn’t even remember giving it to me. Anyway, I digress.

So, in this book, I wrote lots of things in it. I wrote thoughts. I wrote quotes. Its a pretty deep book. Even now when I look at it, I don’t see it as childish. I see it as deep. I must have been going through something or that must have been some sort of turning point in my life because its pretty deep stuff in it.

So, I was going through it and I saw a place where I started writing theories or life lessons that I had experienced and had decided to teach myself or something. Some of them were in my words and some of them were like quotes that I got from some places. It sort of reminded me of what I am going through right now and the things that I have learnt the hard way.

Ill share these theories that I wrote in this book and then I will add some new ones that I have learn recently.

From the book:

1. Nobody can really be trusted but still you have to put your trust in someone but not 100%

2. Everybody has secrets. Some things are better left unsaid

3. Everybody deserves a second chances but be mindful of those you give second chances to.

4. Someone that has hurt you once has the tendency of hurting you again or probably ruining you.

5. Sometimes we are good to people just because we feel we owe it to them .

6. Sometimes you play more with those you hate.

7. Breakups in any relationship are heard to deal with

8. At the end of the day, we all need God.

9. “Sin” is not written on the face of anyone – Not exactly sure why I wrote this.

10. Begging degrades a person.. so why beg? Only beg if absolutely necessary  РLo. Someone probably pissed me off.

11. You can’t really force a friendship.

12. Your future is in your hands.

13. Face your priorities squarely and don’t let anything distract you.

14. We all make mistakes and when we make them, we need to learn from them.

15. When you fall down, you have to get back up.

16. Silence does not mean stupidity…You are just giving way for the immature one to make his speech.

17. Sometimes you make choices that make you look back and wonder of it’s the right thing you need and you realise that you made the right decision.

18. Make your own choices. Don’t let anyone make them for you.

19. Follow your heart.

20. Trouble is very attractive.

21. Sometimes, saying sorry is the solution to problems.

So, there it is. These were the life lessons I wrote down about 3 years and I look at my life now and I can see why I wrote some of these down. Like I said, I can’t exactly remember which ones are my own quotes or which ones belong to others so don’t really quote me on them.

Now to add to them based on what has gone on in my life of late, Ill say:

22. Trust is expensive. Make sure someone has earned it before you give it to them.

23. Don’t have high expectations of people because human beings have the tendency to disappoint.

24. You never know how strong you are until being strong is your only option.

25. Keep your circle small. People in this world are mean, wicked, heartless and cold. Try not to let them infiltrate your circle.

26. Karma is a bad-ass bitch. Don’t think you can hurt someone and get away it. As long as God is alive, that will never happen.

27. Jesus is the only person that can be your everything.

There are some more but I’ll share them later. These are some of the things I have learned in my 18 years on earth. It just goes to show how far I have come in my life and I am grateful to God.