The Monster In Us
Whoever fights monsters should see to it that he does not become a monster. And if you gaze into the abyss long enough, the abyss will gaze back at you.
– Friedrich Nietzsche
I entered secondary school in 2005. I was 9 going on 10. Therefore, you could say that I was quite innocent. When I got in, I met these people from all walks of life and I was excited to see how my six years with them was going to pan out.
I had the time of my life in secondary school. I would never take those memories back. If I could go back and re-live some of those memories, I would. I had grown in this place and most of the things that I know today was from my time there. However, there is a time in those six years that I wish I could erase from my memory.
My last year in secondary school was a roller coaster. It’s like some kind of bug entered my class. When some of my mates and I talk about it today, we still wonder what went wrong. I just choose to believe that it was something that was a long time coming.
I saw some people morph into different beings entirely and maybe I did too…(I don’t know) but it was something very unusual. I would just say that that was an evolving moment for every single one of us. We all became something else. Every single person changed. I don’t think there is any of us that can say that that moment didn’t change something no matter how little. For me, that moment made me realise those that will be in my corner for life because if we could go through that together and still be friends, then it was definitely worth something.
I figured out that it was like we had invited this bug into our midst. We had let it happen. We had fought so many monsters within us but unfortunately, we were becoming like that. It was at that moment that I noticed that each and everyone of us has a bit of darkness in us. What determines if we are good or not depends on which part of us that we feed. If you feed the darkness in you, you become a dark being but if you feed that light, you become light.
In recent times, Nietzsche’s quote began to make so much sense to me especially in light of everything that has been going on in Nigeria. Over 200 girls got kidnapped in April and up till today, only a handful had managed to escape. I have no right to call anyone evil but the act is utterly despicable.
The thing about monsters is that when you feed them, they grow and take over. Now, these men that kidnapped these girls, I don’t know what they have been through in their lives but to intentionally cause pain to families that have done them nothing is something that I can’t fully understand.
We all have pain. Heck, my pain has become a person even but even then, I won’t intentionally cause pain to someone else and its sad that these men have decided to do just that.
I would never understand what these girls are going through right now but I’ll say this: Don’t feed the darkness because it will grow and it will be hard to curb it.