5.40 AM


The night time is an overwhelming time of the day for me

Especially between the hours of 3 am and 6 am

Because, my mind gets so flooded with thoughts.

I could lay in silence for hours just thinking.

And if you don’t mind, I’d love to share.

I want to write a book.

I have always wanted to write one since I was a child.

I have tried to before but they just never worked out.

The thing is I want to write something different, Something new!

But, every idea that comes to mind seems like I have heard it before.

And that sucks because I really want to create something revolutionary.

I was going through Instagram and I saw a post

That answered a question that I’ve been trying to answer for about a year now.

A year ago, I read a book titled The Perks Of Being A Wallflower’

And, I read something that sort of moved me a little bit.

It said: ‘We accept the love we think we deserve’.

It was such a powerful statement and I even shared that on this blog.

But, I sort of understood it but I had still been trying to get it.

Then, I read this post that said:

We accept the love, we think we deserve

You never expect the hurt to come from those you love.

You assume that your love for them ultimately means, 

That if nothing else

They love you just as much.

So when they, whether lover of friend,

Show you that their devotion to you 

Is no where close to your loyalty to them,

It hurts

So the question is not, How do you find an equal in love

But rather,

How much hurt are you willing to accept along with the love and for how long? (Source: Thegoodquote – IG)

Reading that made me feel some type of way

It was very enlightening and very deep.

In a way, it was like I was seeing the human race,

In a completely different light.

It is very sad that you could love someone so much

With all your heart, with all of you

and you will get nothing back in return

That really sucks.

Even with friends, you could be there for them, be loyal to them

And yet, they will treat you like scum.

But that’s the way of the world isn’t it?

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