What is life?

Pardon me if I don’t write my best today. I am just waking up from sleep. Lol.

I am so glad its Friday. It has been an emotional week and I just feel drained of all my energy and I just want to not think about anything sad or frustrating. I just want to be on my bed and watch TV shows. Thank Goodness, I have no classes on Friday.

So, my week started with bad news. On Monday, we got the sad news that a beloved person in my department had died on Sunday, the day before. To say it was shocking is an understatement. It still is. It came from nowhere and this was someone that was in school last week. I saw her just last week.

We weren’t friends and I never got the opportunity to know her well but I worked with her a few times. She was a great girl. She was never angry or sad. She smiled all the time and loved to have fun. I never heard anything bad about her and she was just a happy person and to think that she is just gone is just too much.

I know we weren’t close but I feel the loss. I have been shaken to my core this week. It has made me question life and if anything really matters if death just comes and wipes it all away. Like, what is life really at this point? I have just been sad and frustrated.

I have been so frustrated because I finish my degree in December and all my plans for after have just been falling by the wayside as I go. I mean, I know that there is a purpose for everything but I really don’t feel that way right now. I just don’t know where I stand right now and I feel pressure from everyone to do well and I just, I’m frustrated.

Anyway, that’s left to me to figure out right? I’ll try and let you know. So, how was your week? You could ket me know in the comments

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