D is for Dolly

Hi Dolly. How are you? Yes…I know no one really calls you Dolly…well, not yet anyway but trust me you would get used to it soon enough. Who am I? Don’t I look familiar? I’m you. I know. We look good don’t we? It’s our birthday tomorrow. How do you feel? Yeah I get that. You want to know my age now? Hmm.. well, I’ll be 20 tomorrow and you’ll be 10 right? I know. Great age. Mummy has something big planned for you. You would have to wait till Christmas though. You have to enjoy it though. It’s going to be the biggest party you would have in a while. No…trust me that’s not a bad thing. It just means that you prefer doing things a little simpler now.

There a lot of things I wish I could tell you. I wish I could tell you which friends to avoid, what boys to run from, what mistakes not to make but I won’t be doing you a favour. I really wish I could protect your heart from all the pain but you need it. You have to figure things out for yourself. It would only make you stronger and believe me, you are one strong woman. Anytime you go through something, just remember that you would be fine. You would always be fine.

Now, while you would experience some really tough times, you would also experience some really great times. You are going to meet people who would become a part of your journey and cheer you on. Some of the friends you already have would remain your friends for life. You don’t know it yet but you would. You would experience some really great times that would make you believe that life couldn’t get any better but it would. It would get better and I know this because I believe it even now.

I wish I could tell you that your relationship with God would always be a smooth sail but it wouldn’t. There are times that you would not want to speak to God because you are afraid He is to listening or that He has turned His back on you. But I want you know that He is always there. He is always listening and He would never turn his back on you. You just need to have faith and keep believing. He knows what He is doing so trust Him.

And finally, Dolly, you are special. I never ever want you to forget that. You love with all your heart and you are just a great person. I don’t mean to toot our horn but I feel like I need to tell you this because you would forget a lot how special you really are.

I have to go now. I’ll miss you too and Yes…you would see me every once in a while.

Thank you love. Happy birthday to you too.

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C is for Cleaning

I am a messy person and I don’t like to clean. When I say messy, I don’t mean disgusting; I just mean that I always have things all over the place.

As I said above, I don’t like cleaning and I do it because in most situations, I have to. However, there are times when I am so sad and cleaning is just a good way to get my mind in check.

I remember my mum telling me sometime ago that whenever you don’t feel very good – like if you are feeling upset or down -, cleaning is a great way to feel better. This is because when everything around you is disorganised, it also messes with you inside. Cleaning organises everything and looking at clean room always makes you feel better inside even if its just for a little while.

So while I hate it, I believe that it is therapeutic. So, what do you do when you feel upset or down? Let me know in the comments below

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B is for Baking

Those that know me well know that baking is a hobby that is very close to my heart. I just love to bake and I have loved it since i was a little girl.

One day, when I was a little primary school girl, I went to school as usual. However, this particular day, our home economics teacher decided to teach us how to make pancakes. We all wore our dark green aprons and hair nets and we got going. Well, actually she got going while we stood around her and watched. Later, we all got to taste the finished product and I was delighted in the fact that I was a part of it. Even though, I didn’t do anything other than watch, I just felt like I was a part of something great.

Now, even though pancakes doesn’t require baking, it still really excited me and I wanted to try other new things. When I got home that day, I told my mum that we were taught how to make pancakes and I really wanted to make some for them at home.

Now, I don’t really remember when this happened but all I know is that one day, I got back from school and my mum and aunt were in the kitchen with all the ingredients to make pancakes. This time, I had the opportunity to get my hands dirty and it was so amazing.

While the pancakes made me really excited about the great things that the kitchen could produce, it was my mum’s baking phase that really made me fall in love with baking.

Now, let me paint a picture of the type of woman my mum is for you guys.

My mum is a really strong, hardworking woman. She is a really busy woman who just loves to come home after a long day, make some quick dinner, kick her feet up and watch TV and after that, she is off to bed.

It is so funny to me because there was once a time when my mum was really obsessed with baking. It was almost like she baked something every night. I have no idea why she got so into it but she was. She had all the cook books and the equipment. It was amazing. The day I knew my mum was officially a bake-o-maniac was the day she made braided bread. Now, I was younger and I didn’t know that ‘braided bread’ was actually something you could make. But, she did and it was delicious and it looked a lot like this:

braided bread

She eventually got over that phase because she got busier and busier. So, I guess I carried on where she left off. I remember a time when my friend, my siblings and I made some cupcakes and decided that we wanted to sell them outside our gate. My mum heard about it and she was not happy about that because she didn’t want us to get into any kind of trouble.

Anyway, I am nowhere near being a baking genius but I can bake for my friends and family and they always seem to love it. I love what baking has done for me. It has helped me through some terrible nights when I was so frustrated and overwhelmed with life and for that, I would forever be grateful.

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A is for Art

Hi guys,

I was supposed to start this yesterday but I was really swamped. So, I am starting today. Hope you guys enjoy it.

Art enables us to find ourselves and lose ourselves at the same time

The quote above was said by a man called Thomas Merton and I agree with his definition of art. I have never been someone who was into art work but for the last couple of weeks, I have been reading a book called ‘How to be both’ by Ali Smith. In this book, she explores art through her characters.

She seems to feel like art represents all things. Art is much more than paint on a canvas. It is life, love, memories and I think that is something I agree with. I see art as a form of expression and it doesn’t only come in form of paintings. It could be writing or music, just about any piece of expression.

I think that everyone has some form of art in them; it’s just a matter of finding it.

My own way of expression is through writing and unfortunately for me, I have been having trouble writing for the last couple of months and I am only starting to get my groove back.

So pls, pardon my writing for now. I am only starting to love my art once again.

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Blogging A-Z

Hey guys,

I realised that I have not been as active on this blog as I have been in the past. I have had a lot of work to do in the last couple of months that has not given me the time to blog as much as I would like. So, I decided to do the A-Z challenge where everyday, I would be blogging about something that starts with each letter of the alphabet.

I am excited about it and i think it would wake this blog up again. I hope to write everyday – starting from tomorrow. I can’t promise that I would write every day but I would definitely try.

I look forward to it and I hope to see your comments and your likes.

Thanks for always being here.

Love,

Dolly

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