This post is for the busty girls who have difficulty finding bras their size

The first time I tried on a bra was in 2007. I was 11 years old and my family and I were on vacation in the U.S. We were staying in my uncle’s big ass house in Dallas and we were having a really nice time. So, my siblings, my mum and I were at a clothing store and we passed by racks and racks of underwear. Normally, I would not really care as much about it but at this moment, I really wanted to wear a bra.

I was already in boarding school at the time and so, I lived with a whole bunch of girls in different classes and of different ages. Looking back now, 11 was probably the right time to start wearing a bra but going through puberty and seeing a lot of girls wear bras, I always thought I was behind. So, when we saw a bra that could fit me perfectly, I told my mum that I really wanted to buy it and I honestly thought she would say ‘no’ but she agreed. So, we bought it and when we got home, I tried it on and it fit perfectly and I felt happy that I had finally gotten to this stage of my life. The size of that bra was a 32A.

After this time, every summer my bra size increased which I thought was understandable because I was at a transitional time in my life obviously and so, I was growing and it was normal that my breasts will grow as well but never in my wildest dreams did I ever think that I will be what you refer to as a busty girl.  Continue reading “This post is for the busty girls who have difficulty finding bras their size”

Mood: Be

If there is a song that describes how I feel right now, it will be this song. Every part of the song from the amazing instrumentals to the lyrics perfectly describes my vibe and the vibe  I want to have always.

This album from Common is the only Hip-Hop/Rap album I have ever bought. Every song is phenomenal and Kanye West may not be my favourite person in the world but his work on this album just proves that he is indeed a genius. This album came out over a decade ago but I only bought it about two years ago because I really wanted to hear music from Common and my research showed that this is probably his best album and I can see why.

This particular song is actually the intro to the album ‘Be’ and I just thought it captured the essence of the album completely

Please, listen to this song and the album and I will see you on Cloud 9. Lol.

I just want to BE.

Graduation Day: Pictures

So, graduation took place on Friday, March 17th and it was a truly wonderful day. I got to celebrate with my family and see my friends again and I was extremely joyful and grateful that day. I have already written a lot about how important that day was to me so I wouldn’t bore you guys with all over again. Lol. So, I just came to drop some pictures from a truly blessed day. Thank you for all the support and I hope you guys love them.

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My constant battle with depression

Hey guys,

So I am feeling some kind of way tonight and I just wanted to use this platform to share how I am feeling. I actually wanted to share pictures from my graduation first before discussing anything further but I thought that if I let this stew in me any longer, it will not be great.

So, I have been open about going through depression. It is not cute. It is ugly and frankly, I feel embarrassed about it a lot of times. For the last couple of months – especially after finding God again – I have been doing great. I haven’t really been unhappy. Aside from the moody days every once in a while, I have actually been okay. However, for the last couple of days, depression has started to rear its ugly head again and it just made me sad because it made me realise that this is a battle that I will always have to fight.

So, I noticed that I have a tendency to blame myself for everything. When something goes wrong in my life or an injustice is done to me, I always see myself as the villain. Since late November, I have been praying and reading my Bible everyday but for the last couple of days, I didn’t do that. So, I started telling myself that maybe I am just never going to be good enough, maybe I will never change for the better. Also, I had been talking to a guy who is amazing. Actually, he is better than amazing. He loves God, loves life and is just really chill and when I actually started to consider that maybe, sometime in the future, this could  work, it occurred to me that I am not good for him. He is great and God-fearing and well I…I am still trying to find my footing.

Then, I tried to reach out to a friend and when she didn’t get back to me, I started to wonder if there is an issue between us (which I don’t think there is) but this, along with everything else going on in my head, it just pushed me to that place once more. That dark closet that I always try to get out of.

I feel terrible for feeling this way because God has been so good to me and I should be grateful instead of being this way…however, tonight, right before I started writing this, it occurred to me that this is something that I am always going to have to fight. I am always going to have to constantly keep on praying and fighting.

I don’t want to feel this way. If I could figure out how to completely rid myself of this, I will  take it but it is just something that I am going to have to deal with. I’ll still keep on leaning on God as best I can because I believe that he loves me and wants me to be happy. I just wanted to share this on here tonight because I needed to air this out. A couple of months ago, I would have sucked it in and you would not hear about it until months later. Lol. However, this is my life right now and I just thought it best to be honest.

Don’t worry, I will share more happy/joyful posts later but I needed to do this. So, thank you for just reading or scrolling through. Means the world to me. ❤

I signed up for Shonda Rhimes’ Television writing Masterclass and you can too!

So, those that know me know that I love TV. I enjoy watching TV shows. It is literally what I do every single day and I especially enjoy shows by Shonda Rhimes. Shonda Rhimes has really been an inspiration to me. I have watched every show that she has ever produced – Grey’s Anatomy, Private Practice, Scandal, How to get away with murder, The Catch.

I am just in awe of her mind and I want to live there to know how she thinks. So, I have been having some interest in screenwriting lately. I have been trying to create some amazing stories that can inspire the world, especially Nigerian Television. I believe that there are some stories that need to be told. However, the one thing that has been stopping me is fear. I am so afraid of writing. I have never felt good enough. Even with this blog, it is like a constant battle. I always have to keep reminding myself that I am good enough but most times I don’t believe it.

With finishing from school and trying to get my life started, doing this has become more of a reality for me. I really have so much that I want to share and say and I am currently researching the subject of a story that I want to write. So, when I saw that Shonda Rhimes was offering a masterclass in television writing on Facebook, the timing couldn’t have been any better. Fortunately, my mum was right beside me and I told her that I really wanted to do it and she told me it was a great idea. So, I signed up for it immediately. It is just $90 to pre-enrol as the class starts in 17 days which I think is amazing because THIS IS FREAKING SHONDA RHIMES. I want to learn from the best and be the best and to me, she is one of the greatest to ever do it.

So, I am excited to take this journey and if you are interested in scriptwriting, I honestly think you should consider taking this class as well because it is such a wonderful opportunity.

Song of the day: Circles

Ya’ll, this Remy Ma and Nicki Minaj beef has me stressed…I like both of them so the whole thing is just really stressing me that I had to go and listen to some beautiful R&B. I love music from different genres however, if I was to pick my favourite, it will be R&B/Soul. I love it because it just gets me in my emotions and I love music that can make me feel. You know, love or hate Tamar Braxton but you cannot deny that the chick can singgg and this album is really amazing. It is kind of sad that it did not do very well in the charts but every song is just amazing to me and this song has been in my head that I just felt that I had to share. If you are a lover of music, please do yourself a favour and listen to this album. It is everything and moreeee….<3

Know Your Rights

Hi guys,

So I know I have been away for a while but I will explain later. In resuming my blogging duties, I want to share something inspiring by an amazing person. So, I have known Shawn since I was a young little lass growing up in Port-Harcourt, Nigeria. Lol. Anyway, for a moment in my life, my religious journey took a detour but I have started a relationship with God once more and it is all so beautiful. Shawn shares the most amazing perspectives on Facebook as a young Christian man that really bless me. He has allowed God to use him as a vessel and I really wanted him to write something that I could put on here that will be a blessing to others as well. So, please read and be blessed. 

KNOW YOUR RIGHTS

When the above phrase is uttered, our minds quickly interpret it as our rights as human beings, our rights as citizens of our respective countries, our rights as members of some group or any other association we find ourselves in. And our minds are correct in jumping to this conclusion. However, there is one area of our lives where we do not harness the power of our rights. Our rights as children of God. This may come to you as a shock- either because you are a strong born-again Christian and doing quite well with your faith, or because you don’t even know that you have rights as a child of God. I know I was ignorant, but in recent times, I have come to understand the invaluable position I hold and the power I can command as a child of God. I am now on my journey from Clark Kent to Superman, by God’s grace.

 

First of all, to be able to harness your rights, you must have them. That means, you have to be in Christ to have the identity. Having Christ introduces the Holy Spirit and He serves as an international ID for you. It is He that is seen to identify you as a citizen of Heaven. At this moment, I’ll let you in on these rights. Believe me, at the end of it, you’ll want to be a citizen in this exquisite country called Heaven. So let’s dig in:

 

  1. You have got the Holy Spirit. Like I said earlier, the Holy Spirit is your ID card. His presence is the evidence of you being saved or transformed. In Acts 2, the Bible speaks about the arrival of the Holy Spirit and the signs that signal His presence.
  2. This Holy spirit is the spirit of God. As such, you have God in you. Wait a minute! Read that again. You have God in you! That’s awesome if you ask me. 2Tim 1:7 says His spirit is not one of fear, but of power, love and a sound mind. The presence of the Holy Spirit means you can stand tall. If you will choose faith over fear in absolutely anything, I assure you that you will be rejoicing at the end.
  3. The ability to do ALL things. Not some things. ALL THINGS!! Don’t believe me? Check out Phillipians 4:13. We can do ALL things through Christ. We have to remember the ‘through Christ’ part. With and in Christ, ALL things can be done. ALL hurdles can be scaled, ALL mountains can be leveled for you, ALL crooked paths can be made straight, ALL sorrow can be joy, ALL loss can be gain. Personally, to be able to do ALL things through Christ is encouraging. I can get through anything because I’ve got Christ in me.
  4. You own it all. Remember we are children of God? As such, we are heirs to the throne. We are heirs in the Kingdom. The Bible says we are joint heirs with the Son (Jesus Christ). That means equals. We can then do what Jesus did while here on earth. That includes but is not limited to healing the sick, prophesying, raising the dead, teaching in multitudes, being the light of the world, being called the Sons of God and so on. God created all things. He owns everything. Since I’m his son/daughter, I can ask for anything in the name of Jesus and as long as it’s in accordance with His will for me, I’ll get it. Same principle as a child asking a parent for money or a toy or permission to go on vacation and so on. God is God, but He is also Father and He is Friend. Remember that.
  5. We have got the ultimate end. Our ends are so glorious. Here’s why I say so. Jeremiah 29:11 says His plans for us are of good and not evil, plans to prosper us and give us hope and a future. If that doesn’t motivate you to just let Him do Him in you, then I don’t know what does. He made us. He knows what’s best, and best of all, that’s what He is willing to give us. We just need to let Him.
  6. He isn’t inconsistent. Now this one gets me everytime. Maybe because of the inconsistency that surrounds us. Joshua 1:9 says we should be strong! Be courageous! Fear not! Because He is with us wherever we go now and forever more. If your boyfriend/girlfriend or husband/wife said those exact words, you’ll be loyal to the end. Well, God is even more consistent. What’s your excuse not to obey? Personally, if He sticks to just this one, I’m good. I’m sticking with Him. If you need any further evidence of the level of His consistency, take a minute of your time and check out Hebrews 13:8.
  7. You are a conqueror. In fact, you are more than a conqueror. Romans 8:37 says you slay everything in front of you through Him. All through the Bible, the men and women who overcame difficult situations were those who had God. 1John 4:4 tells you that you have overcome – note: not ‘may overcome’ or even ‘will overcome’- through Him, and He that is in you is greater than he that is in the world. I tell you this! The he in the world is your finances, he is your health, he is your struggle physically, mentally, physically and emotionally. You have overcome that ‘he’ already. You just have to tap into it. You just have to know it.

 

I could go on and on. The Bible doesn’t run out of secrets. I gotta tell you, God is deep. He has given you victory already. You just have to get to know Him, be His friend, listen to Him and watch barriers fall. It’s not easy! It’ll go against your natural instinct because you are flesh and He is spirit. But people have done it. I am doing it, and I have to say. It’s the most popular secret in the world. See what I did there? Lol.

I’ve gotten to enjoy being myself more because I’ve gotten to know the Guy who made me in the first place. Try it. It works.

I hope this blessed you like it did me and a big thanks to Shawn for sharing this. 

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