My days

So, I was thinking about what to blog about today and nothing seemed to be coming to me. So, I went through my notes to see if I had anything written down that I had forgotten about and I came across this piece that I wrote on 03/11/2016. I think I was having a tough day that day and it’s a bit depressing. I don’t necessarily feel as sad now but it just showcases how up and down I feel every now and again. It was unfinished and so I added something at the end that kind of brings it together and just a reminder that no matter what, everything will be okay. 

I have days of strengths

Days when I feel empowered

Days when I feel confident

Days when I feel on top of the world

When I have those days,

I feel like I can do anything

Like I’m super girl or something

Those days I start to believe that I exist for a reason

Those days, I remind myself of my achievements

And I tell myself that I am going to be great

I like those days.

 

Then I have days when I don’t feel so strong

I experience those days a lot

Those days are horrible

Those days, I can’t look at myself in the mirror

During those days, I am haunted by my past mistakes

During those days, I wish I was never born

Because I feel like I’m a waste of space

I know I shouldn’t question God

But in those days, I feel bad for Him

because I know he didn’t create me to be this way

But that’s all i can offer

Those days, I wish I could sleep and not remember

 

But…

 

Then, I remember that life isn’t perfect

And it is okay to feel sad sometimes

It only shows that I’m human

I have to learn to be content and happy and keep striving to be a better version of myself

And to remember that God loves me so much

And that is all I need to keep me going

And most importantly,

That I am enough!

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