When I was younger, I could not wait to be older. I wanted to grow up and have my own life and be able to make my own decisions. So, all through my teenage years and my time in school, I always fantasised about the moment when I will become an adult.
Well, I’m an adult now and while being an adult has its perks, it has also been a very scary time for me.
So, at this moment, I am done with school and looking to start my life as a graduate and a grown-up but it has not been as easy as I hoped.
You know, I look on Facebook, Twitter and Instagram and everyone seems to be doing okay; seems to know what they want; seems to know where they’re going and I am here still trying to figure it out. I know that everything I see isn’t always what it seems and I try my hardest not to compare myself to people because everyone has their own problems and honestly, I am just grateful to be alive. However, it doesn’t stop that fear from creeping in every once in a while.
One of my biggest fears is failure. I do not want to fail. I know that a lot of times failure is necessary in order to help you know what works and what doesn’t. It’s just that things can get overwhelming at times.
I am trying though to do good. I am currently writing a movie script which is something that I didn’t see myself doing anytime soon but I am doing it and it is going great. God is faithful and I have a good support system. It’s just that as a young woman who wants to make a difference in this world, sometimes it seems that I’m not doing enough.
Anyway, I stay praying and hoping for the best because I know that I can do anything I set my mind to.
Please, include me in your prayers. Ask God to keep supplying me with strength. I really need it. Anyway, I just wanted to share this real real moment with you all. This is just how I’m feeling right now but God is in control.