Confidence.

So, I had such a wonderful day yesterday. I was able to work and have fun at the same time and it was just such a lovely, calm feeling. I had a day off from work yesterday but I still had to go to Lekki to interview a physiotherapist for our health segment in the paper. Ever since, I started this job, this was the fastest I was actually able to get a story done and dusted. I had called the physiotherapist in the morning and I was in his office in the afternoon to interview him. We had such a lovely conversation and I cannot wait for it to be published.

Afterwards, I headed to Nok by Alara (which is fabulous by the way) in Victoria’s Island to have lunch with an old friend of mine. I haven’t seen Ajiri since our secondary school graduation in 2011. He has always been someone I have considered a friend (honestly and truly) and it was nice to just eat and catch up and laugh about the goings-on of our lives.

As I sat there talking to him, it dawned on me that I have become a different person – I mean I am still the same but I am also different. The last time I saw him, I was 15 years old and I had not experienced life in the slightest. I had self esteem issues, body image issues, I was at the entry phase of depression. Now, as I sat in front of him, I was now a 22-year old woman. I wasn’t a teenager anymore. I am now more confident and more in tune with the things that I want for my life. I have solid opinions on subjects and I do not care as much of what others think of me.

Don’t get me wrong. There is still so much about myself that I want to work on. There are still days when I wake up in the morning and I am not feeling myself, but over the years, those days have become less and less. There are days when I feel sad and upset but Jesus gives me a reason to smile on those dark days. To an extent, I definitely do care what others think but I care more about how I feel and how I portray myself.

Generally, speaking, I am happier and I feel happier. I feel as though I am in control. I feel more aware of who I am. There is still so much confidence in me that I am yet to unleash and I honestly can’t wait.

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2 Comments

  1. Lovely! Self confidence tends to expand as we grow older and learn to accept and love ourselves. Because if we don’t, how can we expect someone else to? Nice post 😊

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