Confidence.

So, I had such a wonderful day yesterday. I was able to work and have fun at the same time and it was just such a lovely, calm feeling. I had a day off from work yesterday but I still had to go to Lekki to interview a physiotherapist for our health segment in the paper. Ever since, I started this job, this was the fastest I was actually able to get a story done and dusted. I had called the physiotherapist in the morning and I was in his office in the afternoon to interview him. We had such a lovely conversation and I cannot wait for it to be published.

Afterwards, I headed to Nok by Alara (which is fabulous by the way) in Victoria’s Island to have lunch with an old friend of mine. I haven’t seen Ajiri since our secondary school graduation in 2011. He has always been someone I have considered a friend (honestly and truly) and it was nice to just eat and catch up and laugh about the goings-on of our lives.

As I sat there talking to him, it dawned on me that I have become a different person – I mean I am still the same but I am also different. The last time I saw him, I was 15 years old and I had not experienced life in the slightest. I had self esteem issues, body image issues, I was at the entry phase of depression. Now, as I sat in front of him, I was now a 22-year old woman. I wasn’t a teenager anymore. I am now more confident and more in tune with the things that I want for my life. I have solid opinions on subjects and I do not care as much of what others think of me.

Don’t get me wrong. There is still so much about myself that I want to work on. There are still days when I wake up in the morning and I am not feeling myself, but over the years, those days have become less and less. There are days when I feel sad and upset but Jesus gives me a reason to smile on those dark days. To an extent, I definitely do care what others think but I care more about how I feel and how I portray myself.

Generally, speaking, I am happier and I feel happier. I feel as though I am in control. I feel more aware of who I am. There is still so much confidence in me that I am yet to unleash and I honestly can’t wait.

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