Dolly Writes

Journey of a growing woman

Category: 30 day Challenge

Day 30 – Challenge

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Hey hey hey!!!!!!!,
Sooo I am very happy..like I am so ecstatic right now…reason? I have reached the final day of the challenge…I am so proud of myself…and that is because…I have accomplished something…I didn’t quit on this…There were days that I felt like just stopping the challenge…but I said ‘Dolly you can do this’…I promised myself that I’ll finish and I did…Anyway, before I start blabbing too much…let me just finish of with the last challenge….and that is to talk about my highs and lows of like the past month…
Well, topics like this are always kind of difficult to talk about cuz I never keep records or details that much…but off the top of my head…I’ll just mention a few high and low points of this month for me..
The past month wasn’t so bad…I mean, things didn’t go all wrong and I have experienced some good things come out of it. I got offers from all the universities I applied to which is a good thing. The interview that I did for one of the universities was really nerve racking and I thought I was going to mess up but turns out that I didn’t and they actually thought that I did well. I finally got my picture taken for the newspaper. I have been waiting since like December and I finally got it taken..so hopefully..sooner or later…my article will be published in it. Also, I think the gift of life given by God to me has also been awesome because I am healthy and my friends and family are alright…I mean..I really appreciate God.
Just as it had its up sides, this past month also had its down sides…It was quite difficult and stressful. My teachers kept breathing down my neck, giving me the ‘You are in A2’ speech….I really tried to improve but it seems that to myself even..I wasn’t working as hard…which made me feel disappointed in myself…Exams was another frustrating thing that I had to go through….I started having the worst exam phobias that I have ever had in my life…like I have always been nervous about exams but never that scared…I couldn’t understand it.
Finally, crushing on someone who will never know…or might not feel the same way…was kind of frustrating….but it’s alright…I guess.
So I’m done…Nothing so special there…All I’m happy about is that I’m done with this…I thank everyone that has followed it since the beginning and for those that joined in later…because I know that I can be a bit boring…Thanks for reading guys…And I’ll be posting better posts for you guys soon enough….Love ya’ll.

Laters xx,
Dolly.
Before you judge me, try hard to love me – MJ

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Day 29 – Challenge

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Hey everyone,
So last night, I shared a feeling that I miss with you all…Today, I’m going to talk about my goals for the next one month…
I’m not the type to set monthly goals and this is because I always think something will mess it all up..like circumstances could change and shit like that and then I won’t be able to achieve those goals I set..and I’ll be upset with myself and so in order to avoid all these, I just live everyday as it comes and if I can I set my goals for each day. However, for the sake of this post, I will list some stuff that I hope to achieve. I don’t know if I will achieve them but I hopefully pray that God helps out because I haven’t really achieved these type of goals before….(I think)..Okay, so off the top of my head, in the next 30 days, I hope to have finished reading my coursework books. I also want to be able to read more and pray more. I hope to find a balance between playing and reading. Anyway, that’s all I can really give for now because it isn’t something I have thought through…but I think this summarises it all. Thanks for reading guys.

Laters xx,
Dolly.
Before you judge me, try hard to love me – MJ

Day 28 – Challenge

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Hey hey,
Yesterday, I gave you guys one cool story of a problem that I had….well…it’s not like it was much of a problem but I had to say something…Anyway, today I’m going to talk about something that in miss..like something I wish I could have right now….
So…basically…music has always been my life….I have loved music from a very early age…When I say music, I mean like everything about music has always been special to me…I started going to music school when I was 6…I loved it even though I gave my teacher a headache…Entering secondary school, music was my shelter… Loved everything that had to do with music….Due to lack of practise, I lost my ability to play….I wish I could have those moments back….I miss those times…I felt at home and at peace…I forgot about all my worries in an instant…I plan to get those moments back…it might take a while…but I’ll get them back…

Sorry this looks rushed, I got to sleep..

Laters xx,
Dolly.
Before you judge me, try hard to love me – MJ

Day 27 – Challenge

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Hey beautiful people,
Sooo yesterday,I spoke about the kind of person that makes me drool…Well, today I’m going to talk to you guys about a previous problem…Now this one was really really hard to think about and I don’t know why…Like I have literally been thinking about this one since yesterday and funny thing is when I first saw the challenge, I thought this one would be like the easiest…but seems I was wrong…Well, eventually I came up with something…that I’m not sure if it has been much of a problem…but I just have to say that at least this particular issue I’m out to talk about opened my eyes…Enjoy!
Okay so, when I was younger, (and when I say younger I’m talking about like up to about 2 years ago).., I had this problem of not being able to separate fairytales from reality…I always thought that I would have fairytale relationships where I would be with that hot, sexy, good looking, perfect Romeo…and he would bring me flowers and kiss me all the time…I always believed that he would be everything I dreamed of and when he say he loves me, he would mean it and I would believe it without any shadow of doubt and that after everything…we would live in our beautiful castle happily ever after…Well, not a castle but somewhere nice…My God! I was so damn naive and stupid too because how could I think that this kind of stuff existed in real life…Anyway…after having about three relationships in like one and a half years, I think I learnt my lesson…Fairytales aren’t real…They don’t exist…You see…all these books deceived us…Truth is, we don’t know what happens after the ‘happily ever after’ Haven’t you ever questioned it though…Why must all fairytales end with happily ever after I mean, why don’t they teach us about the dangers out there….? Well, maybe it’s because ‘Experience is the best teacher’ but still though…You know, i didn’t realise the difference..until I experienced all these….I finally learnt that, meeting your soulmate is not going to be a piece of cake…It would take tears and pain to meet him and he won’t be perfect….He would make his mistakes but you will know that he is worth it…It won’t be like a fairytale…It’s going to be more….earth-like, more realistic…I finally realised that fairytales keep a lot of secrets hidden…They don’t really show us the pain it takes to get us to to our one true love…I mean..there is more to my foot ‘fitting into a glass slipper’….

Laters xx,
Dolly.
Before you judge me, try hard to love me – MJ

Day 26 – Challenge

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Hi guys,
So yesterday, I spoke about someone special in my life that fascinated me…Today, I’m going to talk about the kind of person that attracts me…
Okay, to be honest…I’m not entirely sure what to say about this particular one…I have been thinking about it for a while now…but I still haven’t like reached a conclusion…You would think that by now, I should have a clear picture of the kind of guy that attracts me..but truth be told…I’m not really sure about it…This happens because I get attracted to a lot of guys for completely different reasons…I don’t always get attracted to the finest guys or the sexiest guys…Sometimes when I get attracted to some people, others wonder why it has to be that particular guy and sometimes I wonder the same thing….but the thing is I can’t really control it…
For example, there is this guy..I’ll call him S…S is not the finest guy on earth..neither is he the sexiest…At first, I just thought that he was really cute and he smiled all the time..Oh my God..then I used to say ‘Aww, he is so cute’.. But then, I started to find him like really attractive…I don’t know why…maybe it was just the way he looked in sweats…I don’t know…I just got attracted to him..It was like some sort of magnet pulling me to him and all…So thing is, I never really had a particular reason for getting attracted to someone…Although, I’ll have to say that personality is a HUGGEEEE factor for me…I mean, a guy’s personality can turn me on or off in an instant…If there is one thing I dislike in a guy or in people in general, it’s a bad attitude…Can’t stand it…So, I can’t get attracted to a person that behaves like a bitch…Honestly can’t…
I can see a guy and get attracted to him in an instant but if he behaves in a snobby or stand-offish way, it can turn me off…

Laters xx,
Dolly.
Before you judge me, try hard to love me – MJ

Day 25 – Challenge

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Hey people,
So yesterday, I spoke about my favourite movies…Well, today I’m going to talk about someone that fascinates me and I’ll tell you the reason why too..
Okay…so when I first saw this particular subject, I was thinking if what I could write….Thought about writing of a celebrity…but ya’ll already know that I’ll talk about Bruno Mars and I did t want to do that as I have spoken about him enough…I thought about writing about God…but God isn’t human….and I’m reserving another post for Him….Thought about writing about some of my girl friends…but they are more than one obviously…so eventually I decided to write about someone that I hardly ever really appreciate…I want to dedicate this post to him because he really does fascinate me a lot…
His name is Doyin. Now, let me give you guys a brief history of my relationship with Doyin. Doyin has been in my life for close to six years now. When Doyin and I started talking, I saw him as ‘Just one of my friends’….I didn’t realise how deep I was in our friendship until Doyin decided to leave in SS2…TO KOREA!!…..and he didn’t even tell me….I found out from his best friend, Michael..I ran to where Doyin was and I started to ask ‘Doyin, why are you leaving? Why didn’t you tell me? and before I knew it, I started to cry…I started to fear that I was about to lose a friend and that chances of me seeing him again or being as close as we were was almost slim to none… I WAS WRONG!
Doyin and I kept in contact with each other. We are even closer now than we ever were…Doyin has done so much for me…He has been there through it all…Through all my tears, pain, joy, laughter…everything…When something major happens in both of our lives, we make sure we tell the other immediately…we tease…we joke around…and when we both are in the same time zone, we find a way to try and see each other even if its just once…cuz we are not the type of people that get out of our houses very often…
I know people say that as friends, you have to fight…Well, Doyin and I have never fought…and I have no idea why…All I can still say is that our friendship is real…
One day I said to him ‘You are an amazing person…you are like my best friend’ and he said ‘I think we have passed that stage’ I couldn’t agree more..
Doyin is really smart…and he always tries to help me out and encourage me…The kind of things that doyin has experienced with me in this my life makes me wonder why he still even bothers….He manages to make me laugh and to see the good in every situation…We can talk for hours….Ask us what we have been talking about? Nothing at all…
My whole point of this whole story book is that Doyin is smeone that fascinates me and he is an awesome person and friend…and I love him with my heart……

So, I guess…I may have blabbed a little…but I hope I have been able to give you guys an insight into someone that really fascinates me…

Laters xx,
Dolly.
Before you judge me, try hard to love me – MJ

Day 24 – Challenge

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Heyyyyyy people,
Yesterday, I gave you some beautiful pictures of five handsome, sexy, talented…(I need not say more)….male celebrities…Today, I’m supposed to write about my favourite movie…Well, I have two favourite movies…Like they are my favourite movies of all time…They never get old for me and I watch them over and over again..so I’m just going to talk about them a little bit…
The first movie is:

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This movie was my childhood men…..I love it for daysss…I have watched this movie like up to a thousand times….literally…It is so good….I mean who didn’t watch sound of music as a child….This movie is like timeless…Julie Andrews…Oh my God…I will forever love her for this movie…and it is soo old..yet it just manages to catch my attention every time….and the songs in it are just….Men..if you haven’t watched sound of music, you are missing out big time….Pls grab your copy..NOW!

The second movie is:

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My dad introduced me to this movie because at some point, he really loved J-lo movies like big time….So daddy came home one night with this CD like when I was like 6/7 years old…and he is like ‘you should watch this movie…..Jennifer Lopez is in it…’ Wasn’t completely sure who J-lo was and like when your dad recommends a movie for you to watch, you might be a bit scared that the movie might bore you out of your mind…..but boy was I wrong….I fell in love with this movie….I fell in love with J-lo…I fell in love with everything that this movie had to offer….I watched this movie so much until the cd started cracking….Maid in Manhattan is so goooooodddd….I mean…it is amazing….and I just love it….

So we are done, my two favourite movies…Glad I could share…

Laters xx,
Dolly.
Before you judge me, try hard to love me – MJ

Day 23 – Challenge

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Hello..hello!,
Yesterday, I gave you guys an insight into my life in the last two years and how I think i have changed…well, moving on to something less depressing, I am going to give you pictures of five male celebrities that I find attractive..now I have been waiting for this particular day to show you these Greek gods…Oh…la…la…they make my heart beat faster…I will start from no.5 to no.1..Anyway, enjoy!
So, my no.5 most attractive male celebrity is an actor. He is my guilty pleasure. Some people might find him attractive, others might not. I am one of those that find him incredibly sexy. I think he is just amazing. Anyway without much ado, he is…..

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Say what you wanna say, Rob Pattinson is a sexy man. From the first time I saw his face, I was attracted. He is just beautiful and for some reason, I find his facial hair incredibly sexy. Kristen Stewart is so lucky.

Okay, so the next guy I’m about to mention is also an actor. He has been in the business for a long time now…I mean, everyone knows him. One of the movies he did when he was younger sold a lot…and I found him attractive then and I find him attractive now…I just think he ages beautifully…He just grows sexier with age…and he is…..

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Leonardo Dicaprio…Some of you might agree with me that this guy is fine…..I love him…I love his movies…I mean one of the reasons why I read 50 shades of Grey was because I heard that he was going to be Christian Grey in the movie version…unfortunately, that’s not the case anymore..Oh well!

The next guy is sexxyyy….I don’t even think any one will even disagree with this one..I fell in love with this guy in one movie he acted about 3 years ago..the movie was amazing and he was acting with one of my favourite actresses, Sandra Bullock..I think I might have given him away already…but for those of you that do not know who it is..he is…

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Uhh, Ryan Reynolds is just one fine ass man….In the movie ‘The proposal’, he just won my heart and he was so awesome…and he was Sooo hotttt! He is so……I’ll leave it at that…

Now, I’m supposed to give you my number 2 but I can’t decide between these two because they are just talented, sexy, handsome…in fact they are the whole package…so they are tying for number 1…I’ll start with the first one…
He is an actor..(hmm seems like I have a thing for actors)….Anyway…he is just sexy, fine, his eyes are just reaching into your soul….like you can just drown in them…In fact this picture I’m about to put of him still doesn’t do him any justice but anyway…here he is…..

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Pls can the house say a big ‘Amen’…whoooo…..Michael Ealy, you just get my blood hot…I just love you…I would kiss Michael Ealy in a heart beat…
Anyway, my other number one is a musician…if you know me very well and from what I have even said on this blog, you might guess who it is…He lights up my soul…I said I’ll kiss Michael Ealy in a heartbeat…well I will marry this guy in a heartbeat….I will gladly be his wife for this life and the one after it..Anyway, let me waste no more time, he is….

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Bruno Mars, where have you been all my life? Why can’t you just ask me to marry you? I love Bruno Mars…I find him sexy…I find him attractive….Say what you wanna….this guy is just really really sexy to me in my own opinion…I love him…

So guys, these are my 5 sexy male celebrities….This is my own opinion and all….and you all have to admit…they are not bad…Anyway I love them..

Laters xx,
Dolly.
Before you judge me, try hard to love me – MJ

Day 22 – Challenge

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Hi everyone,
Yesterday, I spoke about one of my favourite shows..Today, I’m going to talk about how I have changed in the last two years. It’s 2013. So basically, I’m going to be talking about how I have changed between 2011 and now.
Two years is a long time. Two years is approximately 730 days, 104 weeks, 17520 hours, 1,051,200 minutes and 63,072,200 seconds. Whew! Even you have to agree that that is a mouthful. A second alone can change somebody..talk less of TWO YEARS! I have definitely changed. To explain further, I’ll give a review of how these years have been.
Twenty eleven: I wont lie, twenty eleven was a roller coaster ride. I mean, I went through a lot of emotions in that year. I was in SS3 that year and it was a long journey. I enjoyed the feeling of falling in love and I suffered the feelings of break ups. I had loads of exams that year that wasn’t what you would call ‘easy’. Apart from that, school life was getting very complicated. As graduation was getting closer, it turned out that everyone wanted to pour out feelings that they had been harbouring in their hearts for the last six years. This led to my whole set getting into trouble with the school management. We were on the verge of expulsion. Luckily, our parents never found out. We all eventually graduated. It was a bitter-sweet moment. It was sweet because we were moving forward in our lives and it was bitter because we had lived with each other for six years. There had been tears, laughter and all sorts of emotions. I started a new relationship. I was so in love. Came to England to start my A levels and I met new people. Needless to say, twenty eleven was a crazy year.
Twenty twelve: This year was the year I would call tough because nothing really good stood out. I mean I broke up with two people that year. I broke up with my boyfriend and I broke up with someone I never even dated. Not that we broke up but things just changed. I don’t know who changed between us; whether it was me or him. He had always been there. He had been there through my last relationship and then eventually I fell for him. We never dated but after a while, things changed. I won’t go into that too much. A level exams came. I didn’t do well. I felt really terrible and really bad. I was depressed. In fact, I was a wreck. Like I said in one of my posts ‘You can never be too young to suffer from a break up’. The only good thing I got out of this year was getting closer to people who really helped me through it and all. Twenty twelve was messed up.
NOW!: I can honestly tell you that I’m not who I was before. All those things I went through really taught me something and made me see things differently. Two years ago, I was just a naive little girl learning the feeling of love and didn’t mind who or where I got it from. Now, it’s like I am afraid of commitment. I mean, I say all the time that I want a boyfriend. Truth is, yh I wouldn’t mind having one but when I start liking somebody and the person maybe starts getting close or someone starts liking me, it’s like my heart closes. I like see it all wrong. I have started learning to control my feelings and emotions around others because the truth is that it is not always about me. Even deep down, I know that I have changed. I can’t start going through all the specifics or details but i can tell you that the Dolly of twenty eleven isn’t the same Dolly now.

Laters xx,
Dolly.
Before you judge me, try hard to love me – MJ

Day 21 – Challenge

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Heyyy everyone,
Sooo yesterday, I wrote about education and how important I felt it really was…Well, today I’m going to talk about one of my favourite shows…
Soo, I watch a lot of shows…well…not a lot but quite a number and I love all of them…I mean, I won’t keep watching them if I didn’t…but there is one that really stands out for me and this show is…..*drumroll*…

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White Collar is an amazing show. I started watching it out of boredom. I had no idea what it was about. I didn’t even know what genre it fell under. All I know is, the minute I started watching it, I fell in love. It is so good and I love crime and mystery stuff and so white collar does it for me. The characters are amazing. I mean Matt Bomer? That guy plays an excellent Neal Caffery…I mean, he is a fine ass man….Too bad, he ain’t available to us ladies…Tim Dekay is an amazing Peter Burke..I mean, he is so smart and funny at the same time…and the relationship with his wife, Elizabeth Burke played by Tiffani Thiessen is so wonderful…I mean, I wouldn’t mind a marriage like that. They trust, adore and love each other so much. In fact,the trust Elizabeth has in her man is highly admirable. Jones and Diana are also wonderful FBI characters. I mean, I adore them. White collar would not be complete without mentioning Mozzie played by Willie Garson…I mean…they couldn’t have chosen anyone better….I adore him…He is so funny and he makes the show worth looking forward to if I’m making any sense…
Anyway white collar is an amazing show. I salute the producers for creating such a wonderful show. I am still on the third season of it while everyone is on like the fourth season but I’m just taking my time, you know. Anyway, the show is wonderful, I think everyone should watch it..at least try it…It’s too good….especially if you love crime and mystery.
Thanks for reading guys.
Laters xx,
Dolly.
Before you judge me, try hard to love me – MJ