Consider what you owe to his immutability. Though you have changed a thousand times, He has not changed once.

– Charles Spurgeon

I have never met a perfect person. In my 8089 days of living, I am yet to meet or hear to someone that is just 100% absolutely, positively perfect. However, I am aware of an entity who is perfect in every way and that is God.

God is the only perfect being that was, is and is forever. He is faithful, kind, loving and every other amazing adjectives. The way that God loves me is like none other. You see humans aren’t perfect and no matter how hard we try, we can never be perfect. We will always make mistakes. It is just the way it is and the good thing about it is that God doesn’t expect us to be perfect.

And thank God for that because I have done some shitty things in my life but what I have discovered is that some how, some way, even when I don’t deserve it – which quite frankly is never – He loves me anyway. He is always right there, loving me and waiting for me to come to Him.

You know if I had a friend or a loved one who constantly – without fail – hurt me or did something bad to me, at some point, my patience will probably run out but see, that’s not the same with God. His patience never runs out.

I just…I have come to see that God really and truly is everything and I yearn to know him more and more. Unfortunately,  I am still at the point where I have not let go of a lot of my bad habits. It is hard, I won’t lie but I want to try. I do not even know if I am ready to try to be perfectly honest but I do want to keep working on my relationship with God. Even though, my spiritual life is really shaky, I feel like this is the best it has ever been because more than ever, I understand God a whole lot more than I did even a year ago.

I know that He loves me so much and I have faith in Him and I acknowledge what Jesus did for me on the cross and I am so thankful for it because I would be so doomed without  that beautiful price that He paid for me.

The book of 1 Samuel (Part 2)

Hey guys,

Welcome back to our discussion on the book of 1 Samuel. Normally, I like to do one post but this one was especially long, so I decided to split it into two. Thank you so much for your patience and without further ado, let’s get to it.

A Goliath Problem

Have you ever had a problem that seemed so big that it seemed so impossible to solve? Well, that my friends, is what can be referred to as a Goliath problem. This is based on the infamous story of David and Goliath and as we are about to see, there is never any problem that is too big for God to solve.

So, the Israelites were at war with the Philistines and in 1 Samuel 17: 4-6 (GNT) states:

A man named Goliath, from the city of Gath, came out from the Philistine camp to challenge the Israelites. He was over nine feet tall and wore bronze armor that weighed about 125 pounds and a bronze helmet. His legs were also protected by bronze armor, and he carried a bronze javelin slung over his shoulder.

The Bible also says that “Goliath had challenged the Israelites every morning for forty days and forty nights.”

Has that problem been challenging you and making you feel small? That is exactly what Goliath was doing to the Israelites.

Now, one day David came to the Israelite camp. He really had no business being there but his father had told him to go and check on his brothers. Thank God for that! Sometimes, God will dispatch something or someone that seems so random to help you solve your problem.

When David saw this giant challenging the people of Israel, he got upset. How dare this man challenge the people of the Living God? My dears, you are royalty. You come from the Ancient of Days and so whenever a problem starts to challenge you, remember who you are!

So, David told Saul that he wanted to fight Goliath and so, they strapped him up with a sword, helmet and an armour but David could not walk in it. So, David decided to pick what he knew. 1 Samuel 17: 39-40 (GNT):

 39 David strapped Saul’s sword over the armor and tried to walk, but he couldn’t, because he wasn’t used to wearing them. “I can’t fight with all this,” he said to Saul. “I’m not used to it.” So he took it all off. 40 He took his shepherd’s stick and then picked up five smooth stones from the stream and put them in his bag. With his sling ready, he went out to meet Goliath.

Do you remember the story of Shamgar and the oxgoad ? If you haven’t, please check it out here. Sometimes, your best weapon is the one in your hand or one that you are used to.

When David approached Goliath, Goliath taunted him. He was so sure that he could beat David. He was so sure that he could destroy him but David knew that He had the Most High God behind him and he said in 1 Samuel 17: 45-47 (GNT),

45 David answered, “You are coming against me with sword, spear, and javelin, but I come against you in the name of the LordAlmighty, the God of the Israelite armies, which you have defied. 46 This very day the Lord will put you in my power; I will defeat you and cut off your head. And I will give the bodies of the Philistine soldiers to the birds and animals to eat. Then the whole world will know that Israel has a God, 47 and everyone here will see that the Lord does not need swords or spears to save his people. He is victorious in battle, and he will put all of you in our power.”

And with his slingshot and a stone, David defeated Goliath with just one hit. Goliath came tumbling down and that big problem was a problem no more! Somebody, give the Lord a shout of praise!

Today, I prophesy into the lives of those reading this  that that Goliath problem that has been caused you grief and pain will be destroyed today in the Name of Jesus. God is with you my loves. Just trust in Him.

Final Thoughts

The rest of 1 Samuel was really about Saul trying to kill David. Saul was jealous of David. He knew that God had chosen and instead of trying to rekindle a relationship with God, he spent this time chasing and plotting to kill David. There were at least two occasions where David could have killed Saul but he didn’t because he respected the fact that God had chosen Saul to be the first King of Israel.

There was a point when Saul sent three thousand of his best soldiers to find David. THREE THOUSAND MEN! All to kill one man. When the enemy is afraid of you, he will deploy all his resources to try and destroy you. Do not fear! God is with you and whenever life seems to be so hard, remember that you are a force to be reckoned with and that is why the enemy is trying to bring you down.

Finally, in Chapter 31, Saul and his sons died in battle!


That is it guys! I really enjoyed writing this. Remember how I said yesterday that I was trying to get back on track with my spiritual journey, well believe it or not but writing this post just rejuvenated my drive. God is so good! This post just encouraged me and just made me feel better about everything that I am going through and I hope it does the same for you too.

God is with you my darlings! Never forget that. I started 2 Samuel yesterday and I’ll be back to talk about it when I’m done. Hope to see you then.

Till next time, my darlings ❤

God bless xx





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The Book of 1 Samuel (Part 1)

Hey guys,

I am sorry that this took so long to do. Truthfully, I have been lagging behind a lot when it comes to this. I think my spiritual journey has had a bit of a hiccup lately but it’s more to do with me than anything. God is still so awesome. I am trying to get back on track though so please, bear with me.

Today, I am going to be sharing my thoughts on the book of 1 Samuel. This book its filled with so much. There are tales of love, betrayal, war and so much more and there is a lot to learn. There is so much to say that I decided to divide this post into two parts. So, the first part will be posted today and the second part will be posted tomorrow. So, let’s begin shall we.


The story of Hannah is one of those stories that stuck with me ever since I heard it as a kid. It tells the tale of a man named Elkanah who had two wives – Penninah and Hannah. Elkanah loved Hannah very much but she did not have any children. Penninah, on the other hand did. Every year, they would go as a family to Shiloh to give thanks to God. The Bible lets us know that Penninah used to taunt Hannah because she had no children and it would upset her so much. that she would cry. So, one day she cried to God and asked that he remember her. 1 Samuel 1:11(GNT):

Hannah made a solemn promise: “Lord Almighty, look at me, your servant! See my trouble and remember me! Don’t forget me! If you give me a son, I promise that I will dedicate him to you for his whole life and that he will never have his hair cut.”

She was praying so deeply that her mouth was moving but there were no words coming out. The priest, Eli even thought that Hannah was drunk but she told him that she was just pleading to God and he told her: “May the God of Israel give you what you are asking for.”

Soon after, God heard Hannah’s prayer and she became pregnant and she gave birth to a son who she named Samuel which means “I asked the Lord for him”. After she had weaned Samuel, she decided to keep her promise to God. So, she went to Shiloh with some offerings to dedicate Samuel back to God. 1 Samuel 1:24-28 (GNT):

24After she had weaned him, she took him to Shiloh, taking along a three-year-old bull,. a bushel of flour, and a leather bag full of wine. She took Samuel, young as he was, to the house of the Lord at Shiloh. 25After they had killed the bull, they took the child to Eli. 26Hannah said to him, “Excuse me, sir. Do you remember me? I am the woman you saw standing here, praying to the Lord27I asked him for this child, and he gave me what I asked for. 28So I am dedicating him to the Lord. As long as he lives, he will belong to the Lord.”

I think it is important to always keep your promises back to God. We don’t have to make any promises to Him but if we do, we should keep them. When I was younger, I made promises that I shouldn’t have made because I couldn’t keep them. However, then I didn’t know any better. Now, I am more aware and when you know better, you do better.

The truth is that there is never a loss when you give to the Lord and with Hannah, God blessed her even more. 1 Samuel 2:21 (GNT) states:

The Lord did bless Hannah, and she had three more sons and two daughters. The boy Samuel grew up in the service of the Lord.


Samuel spent his time in service to the Lord under Eli’s direction and the Bible records a moment in 1 Samuel 3 when God spoke to Samuel as a child. He kept on growing and doing the right thing in the Lord’s sight and everyone around knew him as a prophet of the Lord. When he spoke, the people listened.

Samuel was a judge in Israel but as he grew older, he made his sons Joel and Abijah, judges as well but they abused their position. So, the people decided that they wanted a King. 1 Samuel 8: 4-9 (GNT):

Then all the leaders of Israel met together, went to Samuel in Ramah, and said to him, “Look, you are getting old and your sons don’t follow your example. So then, appoint a king to rule over us, so that we will have a king, as other countries have.” 6Samuel was displeased with their request for a king; so he prayed to the Lord7and the Lord said, “Listen to everything the people say to you. You are not the one they have rejected; I am the one they have rejected as their king. 8Ever since I brought them out of Egypt, they have turned away from me and worshiped other gods; and now they are doing to you what they have always done to me. 9So then, listen to them, but give them strict warnings and explain how their kings will treat them.”

So, God chose Saul to be the King and in chapter 10, Samuel anointed Saul as the new King of Israel and the the Spirit of the Lord was with him.


When Saul became King, he started disobeying God. For example, in 1 Samuel 15, the people of Israel were going to war against the Amalekites. God told Saul to completely destroy everything and everyone. God was very clear in his instruction. However, Saul did not listen. Instead of doing what God asked, he spared the life of King Agag (King of Amalek) and they also kept the good animals and anything else that they liked. This made God angry and He told Samuel in 1 Samuel 15:11 (GNT) that “I am sorry that I made Saul King; he has turned away from me and disobeyed my commands.”

When Samuel went to confront Saul, the following conversation ensued in 1 Samuel 15:17-23 (GNT):

17Samuel answered, “Even though you consider yourself of no importance, you are the leader of the tribes of Israel. The Lordanointed you king of Israel, 18and he sent you out with orders to destroy those wicked people of Amalek. He told you to fight until you had killed them all. 19Why, then, did you not obey him? Why did you rush to grab the loot, and so do what displeases the Lord?”
20“I did obey the Lord,” Saul replied. “I went out as he told me to, brought back King Agag, and killed all the Amalekites. 21But my men did not kill the best sheep and cattle that they captured; instead, they brought them here to Gilgal to offer as a sacrifice to the Lord your God.”
22Samuel said, “Which does the Lord prefer: obedience or offerings and sacrifices? It is better to obey him than to sacrifice the best sheep to him. 23Rebellion against him is as bad as witchcraft, and arrogance is as sinful as idolatry. Because you rejected the Lord‘s command, he has rejected you as king.”

Samuel also told Saul that the Lord had torn the kingdom of Israel away from him and given it to someone better. The Bible also states that as long as Samuel lived, he never saw the King again but he grieved over him.

God made Saul the king. Instead of listening to what God told him to do, he acted as though God did not know whatHe was talking about. He thought that God will prefer his sacrifices over his obedience. This was not the case and how unfortunate it was for Saul.


So, now that the Lord had rejected Saul. It was time to anoint another King. So, God told Samuel to go to the house of Jesse because he had chosen one of his sons to be King. So, Samuel went to Jesse’s house and when he saw Jesse’s son, Eliab, he believed that this was “surely the one he [the Lord] had chosen.

However the Lord told Samuel in 1 Samuel 16:7 (GNT): “Pay no attention to how tall and handsome he is. I have rejected him, because I do not judge as people judge. They look at the outward appearance, but I look at the heart.”

We should always bear this in mind. God doesn’t judge by what is on the outside. He judges by what is on the inside. We should strive to be better on the inside and everything else will fall into place. Jesus said in Matthew 23:26 (GNT), “…Clean what is inside of the cup first, and then the outside will be clean too”. (Food for thought)

Samuel went through all the sons of Jesse that were present but God rejected them all. When Samuel asked Jesse if he had another son, Jesse mentioned that his youngest, David was out tending the sheep and Samuel asked that he be sent for. When he arrived, God told Samuel that David was the one and so, Samuel anointed him.

Even though Saul was technically still the King, God had rejected him and chosen David but David wasn’t going to assemble the throne yet until the right time, which came in the book of 2 Samuel.


I hope you enjoyed the first part of this post. I was thinking of putting everything in one post but it is just really long so, tomorrow, I’ll post the other bit. Thank you so much for your patience and I hope you will be here tomorrow.

Till then my darlings, ❤




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The Book of Ruth

I’m baaacckkkkk!

Hey beautiful people,

Hope you are all doing well! I am finished with the Book of Ruth. It was a very short book – 4 chapters – so I completed it within two days. You know, the story of Ruth has always been one of Loyalty and Love. I have always admired Ruth for her gentle spirit and her bravery and her loyalty. I think Ruth is a very strong character and it was nice to read her story once again.

At the start of the story, we are given a backgrounder on who Ruth is. There was a man named Elimelech who was married to a woman named Naomi and they moved from Judah to Moab. They had two sons named Mahlon and Chilion. They married two Moabite women named Orpah and Ruth. Unfortunately, Elimelech as well as his two sons died. So, Naomi was left all alone and she decided to return to Judah with her daughters-in-law. However, on the way, Naomi realised that she did not want to be in the way of their future and so she told them to go back. Orpah went back with Naomi’s blessings but Ruth decided to go with her. Ruth  said in Ruth 1: 16-17 (GNT):

 “Don’t ask me to leave you! Let me go with you. Wherever you go, I will go; wherever you live, I will live. Your people will be my people, and your God will be my God.

Wherever you die, I will die, and that is where I will be buried. May the Lord‘s worst punishment come upon me if I let anything but death1.17: anything but death; or even death. separate me from you!”

If that isn’t loyalty, I don’t know what is. Ruth decided that she was going to be a part of Naomi’s life and to also believe in the God of Israel. And God had a plan for her.

When they got to Israel, Ruth decided that in order to get food for herself and Naomi, she would go to the fields and pick up heads of grain that the workers left behind. Somehow, she found herself in Boaz’s field where she ended up meeting Boaz. I believe that this meeting was pre-destined. To cut a long story short, Boaz was a good man who was good to his family as well as his workers and when Ruth asked if he would be her husband, he went through the proper channels to ensure that he could marry her without any problems and after everything was sorted, he took her as his wife. And by doing so, Ruth became the great-grandmother of Israel’s greatest king. Ruth 4:17-22 (GNT):

This is the family line from Perez to David: Perez, Hezron, Ram, Amminadab, Nahshon, Salmon, Boaz, Obed, Jesse, David.

This is the family line from Perez to David: Perez, Hezron, Ram, Amminadab, Nahshon, Salmon, Boaz, Obed, Jesse, David

There are times in life when we want things to go a certain way and we get frustrated when they don’t because everything starts to seem out of our control. The truth is that in most cases, our plans do not align with God’s plans. So, when those times come, it is always better to give into his plans because he has more in store for us than we could have ever possibly imagined. We just have to believe and hope in His plan for us.

I hope that you enjoyed reading this post just as much as I enjoyed writing it to you. I’m sorry this is late. I have spent about two days trying to compose this post so please bear with me. All Glory be to God for His compassion and His grace and His strength.

I started 1 Samuel yesterday and so far, I am really enjoying it. I love this part of the Bible a lot so it is a joy. Thank you for always being here. I’ll write when I’m done with 1 Samuel.

Till then my darlings,

God Bless. xx





The Book of Judges

Back at it again with the back at it again.

I am very pleased to say that I finished with the Book of Judges today. I enjoyed reading it a lot. There were stories there that I was familiar with but hadn’t read in a long long time and so I was happy to read it with fresh eyes and a new perspective. There were also some stories that I did not know anything about and I was happy to learn about them as well. Isn’t God good? Anyway, let’s get to talking!

  1. Decide for yourself to serve God: There was something that was very prevalent in the book of Judges. Whenever the people had someone leading them, they always served God but as soon as the person died, they turned away from God. On a personal level, I could somewhat relate to this. You know, up until late last year/early this year, whenever I went to church or did anything Christian, it was because I felt like I had to do it or because I was told to do it. Don’t get me wrong, its not like I don’t love God, it’s just that I didn’t understand it as much. Now, when I do it, it’s because I want to and because I want to learn more. I’m not perfect or anything; I still do some messed up things sometimes but now, I am trying to build a relationship with God and because of that, it’s not left to anyone to make this choice for me. So, my point is, get to know God for your own self, in your own time because that relationship is only between you and God; No one else. I don’t know if I made a lot of sense but I hope I did.
  2. God always answered the Israelites when they cried to him: So, as I partly mentioned earlier, the Israelites had a cycle. They would turn away from God and sin, They will be punished for this sin, then they would cry to god to rescue them, He would send someone to them and then for as long as the person was alive, they would be good and then afterwards, they would turn away from God again and the cycle will continue. However, every single time they called to God, he answered them and saved them. EVERY. SINGLE. TIME. How wonderful is our God? Now, even with knowing all of that, and with knowing  all the sins that we would ever commit in our lives, God still sent his son to die for us and he gave us grace. No matter what, He is always there for us. Just take a moment and  think about this and thank the Lord for his faithfulness because we are definitely not faithful.
  3. Shamgar and the oxgoad: Have you ever heard of Shamgar before? Well, if you haven’t, that is understandable because he is only mentioned in one verse in the Bible (that I’m aware of at least). Judges 3:31 (GNT) says:

The next leader was Shamgar son of Anath. He too rescued Israel, and did so by killing six hundred Philistines with an oxgoad.

When I was researching about Shamgar, I came across something very interesting that I thought is really teachable about this story. The website, actlikeaman.org had this to say about Shamgar:

First, Shamgar used what was in his hand. He did not wait to get another weapon, he used what seemed like a harmless thing as a weapon to kill the enemies. Question – what is in your hand?

Second, he took initiative that something must be done. If nobody is going to protect me, my family and field – I will do whatever it takes to protect it because God has called me as a man to protect what was given to me even if it means using his oxgoad.

What’s your oxgoad? What has God given you so that you can achieve your God-given calling. For some it might not be a lot – thus the more reason to use what is in your hand. I don’t know if you have confidence in your oxgoad but whether you find it silly or not to use the oxgoad that God has given you, be rest assured that the strength does not come from the oxgoad but from God who has given you the ability to fight.

Best believe that God has provided each and every one of us with the ability to achieve our purpose. So, don’t hesitate to use your oxgoad.

4. Deborah, Barak and Jael: I love this story so much. It is one of my favourite stories in the Bible. The feminist in me was jumping up and down in glee when I read this story. Let’s talk about Deborah first. Deborah was the only female leader in the book of Judges. She was a prophet and she was very wise. Give it up for #girlpower :).  The people had been under the the cruelty and violence of the Canaanite king, Jabin and so the people cried to the Lord and he heard them. Barak was the commander of the Israelite army and he was going against Sisera, the commander of the King Jabin’s army. However, even with Barak leading the army, God had other plans. Judges 4:9 (GNT),

She answered, “All right, I will go with you, but you won’t get any credit for the victory, because the Lord will hand Sisera over to a woman.” So Deborah set off for Kedesh with Barak.

This woman happened to be Jael. As the Israelites were defeating Sisera’s army, Sisera ran away to the tent of Jail, the wife of Heber the Kenite and while he was asleep, she killed him.

I love this story.

5. Gideon: Another story that I love so much is the story of Gideon. The people had turned away from God and so they were getting oppressed by the Midianites. So, they cried to God to save them. God chose Gideon as the person to lead Israel to victory. However, when Gideon was approached by the angel of God, he did not feel like he was worthy. Judges 6:14-16 (GNT)

Then the Lord ordered him, “Go with all your great strength and rescue Israel from the Midianites. I myself am sending you.”

Gideon replied, “But Lord, how can I rescue Israel? My clan is the weakest in the tribe of Manasseh, and I am the least important member of my family.”

The Lord answered, “You can do it because I will help you. You will crush the Midianites as easily as if they were only one man.”

I love this story because it shows God using a man that may have been perceived as weak or unworthy. However, it was in Gideon’s weakness that God’s strength was perfected. This story gives me hope for the future.

So, that is it people. So far, this is one of my favourite books. I had so much fun reading it and understanding it and I hope you enjoyed reading this post as well. I start Ruth in the morning. Ruth is a very short book so I should be back to talk about it in a couple of days. I hope you guys will be here then.


Take care, my darlings ❤

God bless xx.



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Love is…

My heart has been so heavy these last couple of days because there is so much hate going on in the world today. I feel so sad because it should not be that way. Jesus did not come all the way to die for every single one of us for us to keep on hating other people.

I mean, do you get how precious that is? Do you understand the depth of love that God has for us? Do you know what it means that Jesus died for you and for me all those centuries ago before we were even born? And then, there are people filled with so much hateeeee!

God is Love! He is love personified. He is the embodiment of love. Jesus said in Mark 12:30-31(NIV):

Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength. The second is this: ‘Love your neighbour as yourself’. There is no commandment greater than these.

So, what are we doing people? Why are we so consumed with hate? Why even burn all that energy hating someone? You are not doing anyone but yourself.

Please, I plead, let us try to be kind to everyone and love everyone the way that Christ has loved us. I am just so tired and my heart bleeds to see so much hate going on in the world.

I love each and everyone of you from the bottom of my heart. Please, spread the love to those around you. Keep on passing the love on. This world needs love and not hate.

I saw an amazing video on Youtube of people between the ages of 0-100 (105, technically) describe what love is and I lost it because it is so beautiful. There is a woman that said that ‘Love is a form of God’ and that just completely got me. I hope this touches you as much as it did me.


No one is born hating another person because of the colour of his skin, or his background, or his religion. People must learn to hate, and if they can learn to hate, they can be taught to love, for love comes more naturally to the human heart than its opposite.

– Nelson Mandela

Love is Finite! Let us pass the love on!


Hi guys,

Hope you had a wonderful weekend. Earlier today, I read a passage in the Bible about when the angel appeared to Mary to tell her that she was going to have Jesus. The first that I thought of was the celebration that had to have been going on in heaven. I mean, this moment was going to change everything for the entire world. I thought of how much time had passed for this to come true. God knew that this was the perfect time for this to happen and it made me feel so glad.

You know lately, I have been a little frustrated with my situation. I have been in the UK for longer than I should have and it is just frustrating because I feel so useless and I just want to go home and get my life started. However, this has taken longer than we anticipated and it has left me feeling very weird and just off.

This passage that I read though gave me a little more clarity. God is a God of order and He is certainly well versed with perfect timing. He knows when the right time to do anything is. As I said in a previous post, God is omniscient. He knows everything and He knows when and how everything should happen.

And I know that I need to trust Him.

And I know that I need to be patient.

It hasn’t been easy but I know that God will not lead me down a path that will hurt me. So, I am trying to trust in that.

I just wanted to also encourage you guys. Some times we want things to happen right now or at a particular time and when it doesn’t happen, we feel sad, frustrated, annoyed but God knows best. You know, one person I always think of when it comes to timing is the beautiful Taraji .P. Henson.

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You know, I love Taraji very much and she is a wonderful actress. I had known her for a long time and I just always wondered why she hadn’t gone mainstream yet. Why didn’t  people know this wonderful woman? She had been in some pretty big movies and she even got nominated for an Oscar on her role in The Curious Case of Benjamin Button, yet it still seemed to take time for her to really pop.

Then Empire came in 2015 and she skyrocketed to the top and I couldn’t be happier. After so many years in the business, she was on everyone’s lips. I am sure that over the years, there were moments where she wondered when it was going to happen big for her and I believe that God was just preparing her and teaching her life skills that she needed for this moment and right now, the sky is just her starting point.

So, we have to trust God because He knows everything and He won’t lead us astray. Don’t worry and don’t fear. This is something I am trying my hardest to do as well because I truly believe that God knows what He is doing and if you ever feel doubt or unbelief, ask Him to help you through that. He knows we are not perfect and He is here to help us all the way. All we need to is ask.


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