Okay. So ya’lll know the drill. I wrote this a while ago but I added some finishing touches to it last night. After writing it, there was a song that came to my mind and I thought I would add it on as well. Hope you like it!
If I could gather up all the tears I ever cried for you
I’m sure it would fill an ocean
If I could count all the times you broke my heart
I’d never stop counting
If I could count all the times I wanted to hurt myself,
lose myself, end myself, just so that you would notice,
just so that you’d look at me and see that I’m here
you still wouldn’t notice.
I gave you everything
All the parts of me that I was proud of
and the parts that made me ashamed.
I tried to do everything, be everything
but that never seemed enough.
Then, I just stopped trying
because there was nothing more that I could do.
There was no more fight in me.
I was literally chasing air
There was no way I could ever catch you.
So, I picked up what was left of my dignity, of my pride
and decided that it was time to stop chasing.
You’re like a dog chasing a car. You’ll never catch it and you just wouldn’t know what to do with it if you did.