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The journey to strong mental health is a continuous one

Don’t cry for me Argentina. I’ll be just fine

My mental health has taken a hit lately. It is no secret that I suffered from depression few years ago. I was on anti-depressants for a moment and I also had suicidal thoughts. It took me a while to get over it but eventually I did through prayer, new friendships and a departure from toxicity. However, I have learned that this journey is a continuous one.

Over the last two years, I’ve had moments where I’ve felt triggered but they have always remained that – moments. Lately, it’s lasted longer than I planned. I can’t exactly figure out when it started but I’m grateful because I know the signs so I’ve caught it early before it can do any real damage.

And while it’s still pretty mild and in knowing who God is and how much he loves me, suicidal thoughts have not come into play and I believe it wouldn’t. However, it’s still hard. I feel tormented inside and I’m trying to deal with it as best as I can. For one, I’m speaking about it and praying about it and even talking to friends and I know that I would be okay soon.

I just want people to know that your mental health is very important. It is not a joke and you should take care of it as best as you can. It is very essential and don’t feel ashamed about it.

To my fellow misfits going through a hard time, you will be okay, I assure you of that. Just know that you are awesome and this shall pass too.

Don’t cry for me Argentina, I’ll be just fine. I just need to do some serious work on myself and I have come a very long way from where I was a few years ago. I am more equipped to deal with this than I’ve ever been and I know that God is making everything work together for my good and I trust Him. It was important to me that I shared this with you all so I hope you don’t mind.

In the mean time, here is a pretty picture of me for you to enjoy. Lol

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His Stay Was Meant To be Temporary…

In a lot of ways, he reminds me of my father. Not an exact copy; but there are just things about him – almost like a modern, more evolved version of my father (but my father nonetheless. And the first time I noticed that, I was scared shitless!

 

I never told you guys this but when I started writing on this blog again, I vowed that I was going to be as honest as I could.

Not to say that I haven’t been honest in the past but I just think that there are a lot of things that I am afraid to talk about, especially in my writing and I want that to change.

Anyway, in keeping to the theme of honesty, I got my heart broken recently. I hate that it happened because the guy and I were never in a relationship. We only knew each other for a very short amount of time but I find that the time that I spent with him was incredibly impactful in my life; in a way that I never expected it to be. He is like a unicorn to me because I have never met anyone who could affect me the way he did in such a short period of time.

From the way it started to the way it ended has been a real life lesson so far. It taught me a lot about myself, my future and my character. I don’t regret it though because I honestly feel like I needed someone like him to push me in the direction that I needed to go in every aspect of my life. I have come to accept that he was never supposed to be in my life for a long period of time; I just needed him to get me moving to the next phase of my life.

He did get into my heart…enough to break it at least. He made me confront a lot of issues that I have. For example, in a lot of ways, he reminds me of my father. Not an exact copy; but there are just things about him – almost like a modern, more evolved version of my father (but my father nonetheless. And the first time I noticed that, I was scared shitless! I always said that I never wanted to marry a man like my father and I would avoid it at all costs. But here I was, seeing a guy who was a replica of my father and I was so drawn to him that I did not realise it early enough.

He was such a teachable moment for me and I can’t help but thank God for bringing him into my life for all He taught me through this man. For one, he is extremely talented ad being so close to him and seeing how hard he worked as a creative was so inspiring. He always advised me to step out on my own and do the things that I love. And honestly, it was while I was seeing him that I started actively thinking about my creative future. And that is one thing I’ll always be thankful to him for.

I also learnt from how he treated me. In a lot of ways, he really was my father. I had so much respect for him (and still do) and it seemed that at the beginning, he saw me for who I was (just like my father when I was younger). Then, as time went on, he rejected me for things that honestly did not even make any real sense. He accused me of not caring about him and always playing the victim and being selfish. Lol. I had to laugh here because it is so far from who I am and anyone who knows me will tell you that. I cared about him so much and I was constantly thinking about him and how special I thought he was. I had always tried to impress him because I loved and respected him and I wanted him to be proud of me but I don’t think i mattered to him as much. It hurt to realise that but I have come to accept that he was not supposed to be in my life for a long time. His stay was meant to be temporary but with a purpose and that was to teach me more about myself.

Were there mistakes I made? Sure. Could I have been less needy, clingy, emotional? Yes, I could have been but none of this was enough to warrant the way he spoke to me in the end. But it’s okay because I realised that I need to be more accepting of myself.

If i don’t see myself through God’s eyes or accept myself for who I am, how do I expect somebody else to accept me? I need to get away from that thinking that believes that I need validation from other people especially men because if I don’t, I’ll keep on meeting replicas of my father. And I can’t have that.

I am on a journey of self love, self acceptance, self improvement; and I am determined to be as authentic as I can be; to be more accepting of my flaws, quirks, imperfections; to work on things that I would like to change and just accept that I am an amazing woman.

The Ground Is Shifting

Then the Lord answered me and said, “Record the vision and inscribe it on tablets…”

  • Habbakuk 2:2 (NASB)

When I started blogging about six and a half years ago, it was supposed to be an outlet for me – a way for me to express myself the best way I knew how. At the time, it seemed so easy. I could wake up one day and decide to write something and it would not be a problem for me. I never worried about not being good enough – I just wrote.

Then, by the time I got into uni, things took a left turn for me. I became the most depressed I had ever been in my life and at first, I was still able to pull from my depression to write without any problems, up until I couldn’t.

I had never really been the most secure person or the most confident but when that depression hit, I lost even the little security or confidence that I had. I was in a relationship with someone who repeatedly cheated on me. And I loved him. With every ounce of my being, I loved him even more than myself. That’s where I made the mistake.

I cared more about his happiness than mine and I allowed him walk all over me. This is not in any way meant to bash him because I don’t see him as a bad person even now. But he hurt me so bad. And I lost myself. It was always so easy for me to write because no matter what I was going through, I was never really embarrassed about my feelings.

However, this time I was. He was not the cause of my depression as I also had some other issues that I was dealing with but his actions was a major trigger for me. So, I started finding it difficult to express myself. I was in constant pain. I didn’t know when it started but by the time I realised it, I was already far gone.

I found it difficult to write – the one thing that was my outlet. Can you imagine how horrible that is? And I was just angry at God for such a long time. I still wrote. There are still posts on my blog from those depressing times but believe me when I say, it took great pain to write them.

There were times I really didn’t want to write but it kept drawing me in even though I couldn’t really figure out how to. As at 2017, my depression had already started lifting and I started to write a bit more but I had been embarrassed about my feelings for so long that it had almost become second nature. So, it was definitely going to take some time to get back to me.

Last year, I found it a little bit easier to write (still not all the way there yet but it was an improvement). But then, I got so caught up at work that I could not find the time or the will power to write.

But…God came all the way through in such a beautiful way.

After NYSC, I left Punch and started working at my mother’s logistics company. It is a new company and I was able to be there to help her from the moment the company launched.

Prior to the end of NYSC, I was not sure what I was going to do afterwards. I had always just gone with the flow without really having a clear vision. I knew I wanted to leave Punch. I just felt that my time there was up but I didn’t know what I would do after. When my mum offered me the job to help run it, I was like ‘okay’. I mean, it was something to do and I just figured ‘why not?’ She still has a full-time job and she goes in and out of Lagos often so, I have been running the day-to-day activities.

However, at the beginning of this year, things started to become clearer for me. I felt like this year was my year to just take charge of my life. I wasn’t sure how I was going to do it but I just knew that something had to change. I realised that I was beginning to get older. I mean, I am 23 years old right now and while that is still pretty young, it just feels scary how much time flies in your 20s. I still remember my 18th birthday like it was yesterday and now, I am whole 23 year old woman.

So, I realised that I have to take this ‘adulting’ thing serious from here on out. I need to start saving and making investments and most importantly start following my dreams and that is where God began to show Himself. He actually started by putting all these mini-thoughts in my head; almost like setting things in place.

First off, with the logistics job, I thought I might be in it for a year before I started to consider leaving and I felt Him tell me that when it was time to leave, I would know. I had been trying to start a podcast last year but fear did not let me. Then, a friend of mine, Isaac reached out to me in early January about starting a podcast together and honestly, I wasn’t sure at first. But then, I realised how much sense it made and when we met up for our first meeting, we had such an easy conversation that I knew that this was going to work.

Then, I had said towards the end of last year that I was going to focus more on my script writing. I planned on writing a play and putting it on this year and I had made a pact with my sister to send her a draft by January 15th. When that deadline came, I had not even written a word and it weighed heavily on my mind. On Saturday, 10th Feb, I realised that I needed to start doing the things I loved and really start taking it seriously. By the next day, I felt God telling me that it was time. The time had come. He gave me such a clear vision on how to move forward and I had never seen my path so clearly ever before. And I am so grateful that He did that for me. I was even so sure that this was the right way to go because everything else just seemed to fall into place.

It was the most amazing feeling and still is. So, I decided to quit my job working for my mother. I knew that I would not be able to accomplish anything I wanted to do if I kept working in the company because I would never have the time. When I told her, she understood and she knew that eventually, I would want to pursue other things.

So, the deal we made was to leave in March. She has even found someone that could replace me and I am just happy and excited to be moving forward in my life. I am taking a huge leap from a job that pays so well but  I feel so much passion in my soul for God and this new path and it just completely fills me up. Walking away from the money does not feel difficult in any way.

I listened to a sermon by Sarah Jakes Roberts recently titled ‘The Ground is Shifting’. She explained that when one looks at the sky and sees it moving, it’s not the sky that is moving but the ground. The ground is shifting and so we change position sometimes and never really realise it in that moment. For example, you could be friends with a person all your life and then slowly, you start to drift apart – not necessarily because anyone did anything wrong but a shift has happened. The person you were has changed and maybe that person hasn’t. Or maybe its the other way around. Either way, both of you can’t really seem to find common ground anymore. This doesn’t happen with everyone but it’s something that does happen. That is just an example.

Basically for me, the ground has shifted in terms of my journey. I don’t know when it happened but it did and I am feeling the effects of it now (in the most amazing way). God has been so good to me – I can’t even stress that enough. I had always prayed to God to reveal a path for me and at some point, it felt like He wasn’t even listening to me. But, He was. He gave me the tools I needed to reach this point. He prepared me for this. Even working at a start-up was a way for me to learn patience and sacrifice and He knew that I would need those things. I mean, just how awesome is He? I can’t even put it into words.

Anyway, this is just a gist that I hope gives a clear explanation of my absence. I have so much in store and by the grace of God, fear would not win. Fear has always prevented me from doing a lot of things but I refuse to give into fear any longer.

Thank you for reading as always and I will be updating as I make all my moves this year.

All my love,

Dolly.

AYO: I find it hard to believe that you were ever depressed

It is so funny to me how fast things can change and you never even realise. That sweater you thought you loved so much two years ago becomes an item that you never even wear anymore. That heartbreak that you thought would last forever becomes a distant memory. There are a lot of things that have changed in my life in the last couple of years and I find myself in a completely different space.

As some of you may know, I am currently doing my national service (NYSC) and yesterday was our CDS which is where we talk about things that we want to do to help the community. Anyway, after our meeting yesterday, I stayed back to hang out with a friend of mine who also happens to work at Punch with me. Ayo and I have a lot in common and even though we have only known each other for a short time, we are always able to talk about anything and everything.

I had mentioned to Ayo that once upon a time in my life, I was very depressed. It is so crazy to me now that I can speak about it in the past tense because I never ever thought that I would ever get out of that hole. The thought of it seemed so impossible to me. As I mentioned this to Ayo, he told me that he finds it very hard to believe that I was ever so depressed.

When he said that, it dawned on me how far I had come. Anyone that knew me during that time knew that I was not always very happy. In fact, anyone that has been reading my blog from as far back as 2013, will know that I went through a very depressive state for a really long time. I was unhappy all the time. I cried all the time and even when I was happy, I was never really happy. It brings tears to my eyes now thinking back to those times because I found it hard to talk about what I was going through. I contemplated suicide so many times. I wanted to die.

When 2016 started, I began to notice a shift. It was a very slight one but it was a shift nonetheless. I could just feel it in my spirit that I was going to be alright. I had an amazing support system in my friends and in my siblings. I was beginning to open up more and share more and even though it was still a difficult year for me, I found it easier to handle. Towards the end of that year, I started to pray more and read my Bible more. Jesus saved my life.

By the end of 2017, I just knew that I was done feeling sorry for myself. I also decided to take each day as it comes. That is and has been my motto. I was going to take baby steps because I know that I have suffered through a mental health issue and if I let it, I would fall back into that filthy, lonely hole again. I have decided to be accepting of what each day brings and try my best not to worry about things that I cannot change. When people tell me that I have adjusted to living back in Nigeria so well, it is honestly just due to the grace of God and in just investing in my personal happiness. I try to laugh as much and as loud as I can because laughter is good for the soul and I try to do things that I enjoy. I do my best to dedicate some time to my Lord each and every day. Some days, I forget but the days I forget cannot be compared to the days I remember.

Don’t get me wrong, there are days that I get upset and I want to cry because things do not go the way that I planned. I allow myself to feel those emotions because I am human after all. However, I try my best to not allow those emotions overwhelm me.

The reason why Ayo can say what he said is because he is experiencing me at the best place that I have ever been. There are days I wake up in the morning and I am not even in the mood and I do not even want anyone to fuck with me that day. Then, I get into work and all I want to do is to tease and laugh with everyone. I can’t even help it anymore. I decided to choose happiness and now, happiness is choosing me.

For those that are going through a difficult time right now, I want you to know that this too shall pass. God got you and I love you and I am always available to listen.

22 So Far: God, Career & Dating in Lagos

So, I have been 22 for just about two months now and I have to tell you, this has to be one of my most pivotal years ever. I am exploring so many new parts of myself and my environment and it is just more than I expected it to be but I am enjoying it and excited to see what each new day brings. So, I wanted to take you guys on a journey on the different aspects of my life since I turned 22.

SPIRITUALITY

Of course, this is the most important thing. I am still not where I hope to be when it comes to God but I have realised something. I find myself leaning more on God than I have ever done in the past. I have found that one way in which he communicates with me is through my intuition so whenever I have any doubts about something or I am confused about the next step to take, I say a little prayer and check to see how my spirit feels about it. This is something that I am really appreciative of because I know that I need God more than anything else I could ever hope for in this life or the one after. As I mentioned, I am still not where I want to be but I am trying, God willing.

 

CAREER

I believe I mentioned in an earlier post that I am currently doing my NYSC, which ofor those who are not aware, means National Youth Service Corps, which is the national service that Nigerian graduates partake in for a year. So, at the moment, I am currently serving in Punch Newspapers which is such a full circle moment for me. One of the very first newspapers I ever read was Punch. In fact, I used to read Saturday Punch and Sunday Punch more than any other paper because they had stories and they were just more my speed. So, it is just so amazing that I get to work and write for Sunday Punch. God is such a comedian and I love it. It can be stressful and to be honest, working in a Nigerian office, – especially after experiencing working in the UK – takes some getting used to but I am taking it all in stride and doing my best to keep working and just being the very best I can.

 

DATING

So, dating in Lagos has been so interesting to me. Lol. I was in a relationship for about 3 years. So, this was like from when I was 17 to 20 years old. It took a while to get over that relationship because that was my first serious committed relationship. I mean, I saw myself getting married to this guy and having all his babies but that did not work out and I really really lost myself. So, my experience of early getting back into the dating scene has been in Lagos. I mean, I did a little bit of it in the UK but now, it is different because I tend to be out of the house more than I ever really have. I am still just at the entry of dating but so far, it has been interesting meeting and talking to people. It can be scary though because I have noticed that people tend to be really dishonest about themselves in this town so, you never really know if someone is being genuine with you. It is really about being careful and I am trying to do that while having fun.

 

ME

I have been so good. I think, in the last couple of months, I have somehow – without even realising – become more confident and happy and just better than I used to be. A friend of mine told me that I am ‘glowing in the chaos’ I truly believe I have God to thank for that. I have to say all glory really belongs to God because He got me out of a really bad rut and I am just generally happy and accepting of things. I try not to stress about things I do not have much control over and just keep it pushing. Mind you, I do not always succeed but I am putting in so much effort into just being happy, honest and free.

 

So, how am I finding 22? 22 has been good to me so far. I do not have much to complain about and a lot to be grateful for. I just hope and pray that this year keeps on coming with the most pleasant surprises, God willing. I cannot wait.

The Book of Ruth

I’m baaacckkkkk!

Hey beautiful people,

Hope you are all doing well! I am finished with the Book of Ruth. It was a very short book – 4 chapters – so I completed it within two days. You know, the story of Ruth has always been one of Loyalty and Love. I have always admired Ruth for her gentle spirit and her bravery and her loyalty. I think Ruth is a very strong character and it was nice to read her story once again.

At the start of the story, we are given a backgrounder on who Ruth is. There was a man named Elimelech who was married to a woman named Naomi and they moved from Judah to Moab. They had two sons named Mahlon and Chilion. They married two Moabite women named Orpah and Ruth. Unfortunately, Elimelech as well as his two sons died. So, Naomi was left all alone and she decided to return to Judah with her daughters-in-law. However, on the way, Naomi realised that she did not want to be in the way of their future and so she told them to go back. Orpah went back with Naomi’s blessings but Ruth decided to go with her. Ruth  said in Ruth 1: 16-17 (GNT):

 “Don’t ask me to leave you! Let me go with you. Wherever you go, I will go; wherever you live, I will live. Your people will be my people, and your God will be my God.

Wherever you die, I will die, and that is where I will be buried. May the Lord‘s worst punishment come upon me if I let anything but death1.17: anything but death; or even death. separate me from you!”

If that isn’t loyalty, I don’t know what is. Ruth decided that she was going to be a part of Naomi’s life and to also believe in the God of Israel. And God had a plan for her.

When they got to Israel, Ruth decided that in order to get food for herself and Naomi, she would go to the fields and pick up heads of grain that the workers left behind. Somehow, she found herself in Boaz’s field where she ended up meeting Boaz. I believe that this meeting was pre-destined. To cut a long story short, Boaz was a good man who was good to his family as well as his workers and when Ruth asked if he would be her husband, he went through the proper channels to ensure that he could marry her without any problems and after everything was sorted, he took her as his wife. And by doing so, Ruth became the great-grandmother of Israel’s greatest king. Ruth 4:17-22 (GNT):

This is the family line from Perez to David: Perez, Hezron, Ram, Amminadab, Nahshon, Salmon, Boaz, Obed, Jesse, David.

This is the family line from Perez to David: Perez, Hezron, Ram, Amminadab, Nahshon, Salmon, Boaz, Obed, Jesse, David

There are times in life when we want things to go a certain way and we get frustrated when they don’t because everything starts to seem out of our control. The truth is that in most cases, our plans do not align with God’s plans. So, when those times come, it is always better to give into his plans because he has more in store for us than we could have ever possibly imagined. We just have to believe and hope in His plan for us.

I hope that you enjoyed reading this post just as much as I enjoyed writing it to you. I’m sorry this is late. I have spent about two days trying to compose this post so please bear with me. All Glory be to God for His compassion and His grace and His strength.

I started 1 Samuel yesterday and so far, I am really enjoying it. I love this part of the Bible a lot so it is a joy. Thank you for always being here. I’ll write when I’m done with 1 Samuel.

Till then my darlings,

God Bless. xx

Love,

Dolly

 

 

Timing

Hi guys,

Hope you had a wonderful weekend. Earlier today, I read a passage in the Bible about when the angel appeared to Mary to tell her that she was going to have Jesus. The first that I thought of was the celebration that had to have been going on in heaven. I mean, this moment was going to change everything for the entire world. I thought of how much time had passed for this to come true. God knew that this was the perfect time for this to happen and it made me feel so glad.

You know lately, I have been a little frustrated with my situation. I have been in the UK for longer than I should have and it is just frustrating because I feel so useless and I just want to go home and get my life started. However, this has taken longer than we anticipated and it has left me feeling very weird and just off.

This passage that I read though gave me a little more clarity. God is a God of order and He is certainly well versed with perfect timing. He knows when the right time to do anything is. As I said in a previous post, God is omniscient. He knows everything and He knows when and how everything should happen.

And I know that I need to trust Him.

And I know that I need to be patient.

It hasn’t been easy but I know that God will not lead me down a path that will hurt me. So, I am trying to trust in that.

I just wanted to also encourage you guys. Some times we want things to happen right now or at a particular time and when it doesn’t happen, we feel sad, frustrated, annoyed but God knows best. You know, one person I always think of when it comes to timing is the beautiful Taraji .P. Henson.

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You know, I love Taraji very much and she is a wonderful actress. I had known her for a long time and I just always wondered why she hadn’t gone mainstream yet. Why didn’t  people know this wonderful woman? She had been in some pretty big movies and she even got nominated for an Oscar on her role in The Curious Case of Benjamin Button, yet it still seemed to take time for her to really pop.

Then Empire came in 2015 and she skyrocketed to the top and I couldn’t be happier. After so many years in the business, she was on everyone’s lips. I am sure that over the years, there were moments where she wondered when it was going to happen big for her and I believe that God was just preparing her and teaching her life skills that she needed for this moment and right now, the sky is just her starting point.

So, we have to trust God because He knows everything and He won’t lead us astray. Don’t worry and don’t fear. This is something I am trying my hardest to do as well because I truly believe that God knows what He is doing and if you ever feel doubt or unbelief, ask Him to help you through that. He knows we are not perfect and He is here to help us all the way. All we need to is ask.

 

Photos: HAPPI Magazine, Shadow and Act

The Book of Joshua

Hi guys,

So I am pleased to say that I have finished the book of Joshua. I actually finished reading it yesterday but I wasn’t really in the state of mind to write on it so I decided to do it today. All glory belongs to the Most High for this journey and I feel great sharing this with you all.

I found the book of Joshua to be about one thing and one thing alone – Entering the Promised Land. Since Genesis, God had made a promise to Abraham, Isaac and Jacob that their descendants will enter the promised land. This promise was fulfilled in this book and I learned some interesting things that I would like to share.

  1. Rahab: I found Rahab to be one of the most interesting characters in this book. When Joshua sent spies to explore the city of Jericho, Rahab took it upon herself to protect them from being caught. All she needed in return was that she, along with her family will be protected when Israel finally conquered the land. Rahab knew that God had already given them victory and she was able to keep herself and her family safe because she believed in what God could do and when the day of reckoning came, no harm came to any of them. It took faith for her to do that and she trusted in who God was and that is what we always need to do. We need to trust in God even when things seem impossible because with God, all things are possible.
  2. You can’t trick God: Another story that I found interesting in this book is the story of Achan’s sin. God gave the Israelites a warning in Joshua 6:18-19 (GNT),

But you are not to take anything that is to be destroyed; if you do, you will bring trouble and destruction on the Israelite camp. Everything made of silver, gold, bronze, or iron is set apart for the Lord. It is to be put in the Lord’s Treasury

HIs warning was very clear but Achan not only disobeyed him but made the mistake of thinking that he could actually trick God. In Chapter 7, God exposed him and Achan confessed in 7:21(GNT),

Among the things we seized I saw a beautiful Babylonian cloak, about five pounds of silver, and a bar of gold weighing over one pound. I wanted them so much that I took them. You will find them buried inside my tent with the silver at the bottom.

You can’t trick God. God knows everything and we have no way of hiding anything from Him. Achan thought he could deceive God by hiding the things he took (Ananias and Sapphira  anyone?) but God proved once again that He is omniscient and we should never forget that.

3. It is always good to consult God when making major decisions: Speaking of God being omniscient, it is always better to speak to God when making any sort of decision. God knows all and because of this, He is able to provide us with the best course of action when moving forward. In Joshua 9, the people of Israel were tricked into partaking in a treaty because they did not consult God. It states in 9:14-15(GNT),

The Israelites accepted some food from them, but did not consult the Lord about it. Joshua made a treaty of friendship with the people of Gibeon and allowed them to live. The leaders of the community of Israel gave their solemn promise to keep the treaty.

As human beings, there are always going to be times when we feel we can make certain decisions by ourselves; the people of Israel did it and so have we, time and time again. God would not force us to come to him but it is always a better choice to consult Him when those times come because He has already seen it all and He can provide us with the best direction for us to follow.

4. Decide for yourself who you will serve: Joshua 24:15 is one of the most popular verses in the book of Joshua. This is where Joshua states : “As for my family and me, we will serve the Lord” What have you decided to do? It is all up to you.

5. Joshua dies: In Chapter 24, we find out that Joshua died at the age of 110. As soon as I read this, all I could feel was joy for him because he had fulfilled the purpose for which he was sent. Joshua was going to be the one that led the people into the promised land and he was able to achieve that with God leading him. At the end of my own life, I want to be able to leave the world knowing that I fulfilled my purpose.

 

DID YOU KNOW???

  1. Did you know about the day the sun stood still and did not go down? So Joshua 10:12-14 speaks of a very interesting time in history and I wanted you guys to see it too in case you didn’t know about it because I certainly didn’t. It reads:

On the day the Lord gave the men of Israel victory over the Amorites, Joshua spoke to the Lord. In the presence of the Israelites he said,

“Sun, stand still over Gibeon;

Moon, stop over Ajalon Valley.”

The sun stood still and the moon did not move until the nation had conquered its enemies. This is written in the Book of Jasher. The sun stood still in the middle of the sky and did not go down for a whole day. Never before, and never since, has there been a day like it, when the Lord obeyed a human being. The Lord fought on Israel’s side. 

Pretty amazing right?

That’s it guys. I hope you have enjoyed reading this post. As always, I have enjoyed sharing this with you all and I appreciate you for reading. I thank God for giving me the strength to continue and I’m happy to be moving forward.

I started the Book of Judges today. I have actually been looking forward to this because Judges has a lot of stories in it. I will be back to share on it when I am done reading.

If you have any thoughts on this post, please leave your comments below. I always love hearing from you.

Till next time my darlings,

Stay blessed xx

Love,

Dolly

 

Photo: SLW Church

The Gospel of Grace

Hi guys,

So, if you recall, I mentioned in my Deuteronomy post about a conference that my church had last week. It was amazing and I got to hear the Word of God from a wonderful pastor – Pastor Creflo Dollar. I had never heard him preach before and I had such a beautiful time and a clearer view on the Word of God.

I wanted to share some of what he preached with you guys – since I love you so much – and I thought the best way to do that will be to share the notes that I took on the first day I heard him preach. It’s a little all over the place but I think it makes enough sense and I hope you can get blessed from it.

Here goes…

 

One of the greatest bondage is people bondage – Bondage to what people think of you and what they say about you.

Grace is not a curriculum or a subject; it is a person and that person is Jesus. Ephesians 1: 16-21 (AMP)

I do not cease to give thanks for you, remembering you in my prayers; [I always pray] that the God of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of glory, may grant you a spirit of wisdom and of revelation [that gives you a deep and personal and intimate insight] into the true knowledge of Him [for we know the Father through the Son]. And [I pray] that they eyes of your heart [the very centre and core of your being] may be enlightened [flooded with light by the Holy Spirit], so that you will know and cherish the hope [the divine guarantee, the confident expectation] to which he has called you, the riches of His glorious inheritance in the saints (God’s people), and [so that you will begin to know] what the immeasurable and unlimited and surpassing greatness of His [active, spiritual] power is in us who believe. These are in accordance with the working of His mighty strength which He produced in Christ when He raised Him from the dead and seated Him at His own right hand in the heavenly places, far above all rule and authority and power and dominion [whether angelic or human] and [far above] every names that is named [above every title that can be conferred], not only in this age and world but also in the one to come.

Not knowing or Lack of knowledge can cost you. Look at Hosea 4:6a (AMP)

My people are destroyed for lack of knowledge [of My law, where I reveal my will]…

Gospel is the grace of Christ. Look at 2 Corinthians 4:3-4 (AMP). (As you read this, interchange gospel with grace. 

But even if our gospel is [in some sense] hidden [behind a veil], it is hidden [only] to those who are perishing; among them the god of this world [Satan] has blinded the minds of the unbelieving to prevent them from seeing the illuminating light of the gospel of the glory of Christ, who is the image of God.

Men can’t see the grace that came by Jesus because they are blinded by the law that came by Moses.

We are living in a different dispensation; we are living in a dispensation of grace.

Romans 6:14 (AMP)

For sin will no longer be a master over you, since you are not under the Law [as slaves] but under [unmerited] grace [as recipients of God’s favour and mercy].

Now, we live under the faithfulness of Jesus and it is for us to believe in that. He is the root and  we are the fruit bearers. We are no longer under the law.

There was a need for a second covenant because the age of the first one had passed. Look at Hebrews 8:7 (AMP)

For if that first covenant had been faultless, there would have been no occasion for a second one or an attempt to institute another one [the new covenant].

We could not live up to the first covenant.

The first one was based on our faithfulness, – if we do, God will do – The new one is based on God’s faithfulness.

The law is for people who don’t have Christ. The law was our babysitter until Christ came. Now, we don’t need the law anymore to guide us, we have the Holy Spirit to guide us.

The law was for a different age. The law never made anything perfect. Check out Hebrews 7:19 (AMP)

(for the law never made anything perfect); while on the other hand a better hope is introduced through we now continually draw near God.

We are not supposed to live under the 10 commandments. There are over 600 laws, we can’t keep them. If you break one of them, you break all of them. – 2 Corinthians 3:5-7 (AMP)

Not that we are sufficiently qualified in ourselves to claim anything as coming from us, but our sufficiency and qualifications come from God. He has qualified us [making us sufficient] as ministers of a new covenant [of salvation through Christ], not of the letter [of a written code] but of the Spirit; for the [letter of the Law] kills [by revealing sin and demanding obedience], but the Spirit gives life.

Now if the ministry of death, engraved in letters of stones [the covenant of the Law which led to death because of sin], came with such glory and splendour that the Israelites were not able to look steadily at the face of Moses because of its glory, [a brilliance] that was fading,

We can’t do it by ourselves and God was going to prove it to us. Exodus 19:8 (AMP)

All the people answered together and said, “We will do everything that the Lord has spoken.” And Moses reported the words of the people to the Lord.

[My understanding: When God gave the people of Israel his commandments, they were so sure that they would keep to it. But they couldn’t. As we have seen in the books of the Bible that we have covered, the people kept on sinning over and over again. The same with us. We can’t keep to the commandments and God proved to us that we can’t do it on our own. This is why he sent his Son, Jesus to die for us so that all our sins – past, present and future – will be completely wiped away. All you have to do is to believe in what He did for you.]

The veil of the 10 commandments is gone. – 2 Corinthians 3:14 (AMP)

But [in fact] their minds were hardened [for they had lost the ability to understand] ; for until this very day at the reading of the old covenant the same veil remains unlifted , because it is removed [only] in Christ.

You are so focused on what you can do for God and not what He has already done for you.

The gospel of grace is not about believing in his faithfulness but in our believing in His faithfulness.