Day 21: I am trying to be more giving

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I tried to pay more attention to God and my spirit this year. I started going to a new church that really gave me everything I needed. And it helped me in my journey to understanding God better. I realise now that our real true selves is our spirit. This body is just a shell. In knowing that and understanding that you are a spiritual being, it helps you to better understand some of the things that you see going on around you. So, this year, I really tried to listen.

I tried to listen to God. And I have to tell you, He sends messages when you need it and in the best medium that you can receive it. I tried to pay attention to how my spirit felt. If I felt uncomfortable about a decision I was about to make, I knew that my spirit was not feeling it and in that case, it was probably not a good idea.

How has it worked for me? Well, I’m still on the journey and a lot of times, even when God speaks, I don’t listen. However, I am trying and to be honest, it has made me more aware and more grounded about certain things.

One of those things is: Giving. God put it in my heart this year to be more giving. I always thought that my giving was okay but I realised that I was not even doing the best I really could be doing. He put it in my heart to be giving not just to Him but to my community.

To God

I made a pledge to myself that I will do my best to give God more. You know, I had mentioned earlier that I was really broke this year but I decided to make an effort to give even when things were dire. Not because God needs my money because He doesn’t. And not because He would love me any less because He wouldn’t. God already gave me before I could ever give Him anything. His love for me transcends whatever mere human money I can give Him. But I had an epiphany this year to give to Him because I trust Him. Giving Him is trusting Him. And He always gives you back. Every time, He always finds a way to give me something. He has done too much for me; much more than money can buy and giving some money to his church each week is really the very very least I can do. 

To my community

In learning more about God, I also learnt that one of the reasons why He created us is for service – not just service to Him but service to our community. And who is our community? Our neighbours, our family, our friends, those that are homeless, those that are in need, basically everyone you come in contact with is our community. He wants us to take care of each other. I haven’t been as great in this area, but I am really trying to be. And I know it’s important and I am hoping and praying that in the coming year, I would be more faithful in my giving to those around me.

So, giving is essential. One of the reasons I have been able to navigate a few things this year is because of the help I got from people around me and I pray for them in my spirit because they really blessed me. No one owes me anything but the fact that these people thought to lend a hand when they knew I needed it is something I would never forget. 

So, I am learning about service and the importance of it and I always pray for God to give me opportunities to serve. And I’m looking forward to doing more of that as I turn 24.