Uncharted Territory

I am entering a brand new chapter in my life. Actually, scratch that. I am in a new chapter in my life. I’m in it whether I like it or not. There are so many changes taking place in my life at the moment and I feel overwhelmed.

I believe that change is necessary but I am a hoarder of sentiments and feelings and so, it is always hard for me to leave a previous chapter because that chapter is familiar to me. With entering a new phase, I always get nervous and scared of what it might bring.

The one change that I am going to focus on today is my new single life. I haven’t been single since I was 17 years old and I just got out of my first ‘for real, for real’ relationship. You know, when I was in secondary school, I dated about two people but it was definitely nothing like this. This relationship was my first taste of an actual relationship — we spent a lot of time together, we did a lot of things together, we laughed, we argued, there were horrible moments and there were great moments.

However, that relationship had to end and at first, it was hard to deal with it but eventually, I got over it and it was a great and vey necessary decision to make. I feel like I am breathing a new kind of air. I am as excited as I am nervous because this is uncharted territory for me.

I feel like being single in your 20s is very different from being single in your teens. So, I am trying to figure out the ropes. The most important thing to me is to figure myself out. I have a lot of maturing to do and I want to lay a good foundation in my professional life. At the moment, my heart can only handle me. I don’t have it in me to fall for someone else or give my heart to someone else. It is too much energy for me to handle right now.

So, in trying to figure out this new singledom, I am just going to ensure that I look out for myself and look out for my own happiness because no one is going to do that for me.


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