Day 21: I am trying to be more giving

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I tried to pay more attention to God and my spirit this year. I started going to a new church that really gave me everything I needed. And it helped me in my journey to understanding God better. I realise now that our real true selves is our spirit. This body is just a shell. In knowing that and understanding that you are a spiritual being, it helps you to better understand some of the things that you see going on around you. So, this year, I really tried to listen.

I tried to listen to God. And I have to tell you, He sends messages when you need it and in the best medium that you can receive it. I tried to pay attention to how my spirit felt. If I felt uncomfortable about a decision I was about to make, I knew that my spirit was not feeling it and in that case, it was probably not a good idea.

How has it worked for me? Well, I’m still on the journey and a lot of times, even when God speaks, I don’t listen. However, I am trying and to be honest, it has made me more aware and more grounded about certain things.

One of those things is: Giving. God put it in my heart this year to be more giving. I always thought that my giving was okay but I realised that I was not even doing the best I really could be doing. He put it in my heart to be giving not just to Him but to my community.

To God

I made a pledge to myself that I will do my best to give God more. You know, I had mentioned earlier that I was really broke this year but I decided to make an effort to give even when things were dire. Not because God needs my money because He doesn’t. And not because He would love me any less because He wouldn’t. God already gave me before I could ever give Him anything. His love for me transcends whatever mere human money I can give Him. But I had an epiphany this year to give to Him because I trust Him. Giving Him is trusting Him. And He always gives you back. Every time, He always finds a way to give me something. He has done too much for me; much more than money can buy and giving some money to his church each week is really the very very least I can do. 

To my community

In learning more about God, I also learnt that one of the reasons why He created us is for service – not just service to Him but service to our community. And who is our community? Our neighbours, our family, our friends, those that are homeless, those that are in need, basically everyone you come in contact with is our community. He wants us to take care of each other. I haven’t been as great in this area, but I am really trying to be. And I know it’s important and I am hoping and praying that in the coming year, I would be more faithful in my giving to those around me.

So, giving is essential. One of the reasons I have been able to navigate a few things this year is because of the help I got from people around me and I pray for them in my spirit because they really blessed me. No one owes me anything but the fact that these people thought to lend a hand when they knew I needed it is something I would never forget. 

So, I am learning about service and the importance of it and I always pray for God to give me opportunities to serve. And I’m looking forward to doing more of that as I turn 24. 

22 So Far: God, Career & Dating in Lagos

So, I have been 22 for just about two months now and I have to tell you, this has to be one of my most pivotal years ever. I am exploring so many new parts of myself and my environment and it is just more than I expected it to be but I am enjoying it and excited to see what each new day brings. So, I wanted to take you guys on a journey on the different aspects of my life since I turned 22.

SPIRITUALITY

Of course, this is the most important thing. I am still not where I hope to be when it comes to God but I have realised something. I find myself leaning more on God than I have ever done in the past. I have found that one way in which he communicates with me is through my intuition so whenever I have any doubts about something or I am confused about the next step to take, I say a little prayer and check to see how my spirit feels about it. This is something that I am really appreciative of because I know that I need God more than anything else I could ever hope for in this life or the one after. As I mentioned, I am still not where I want to be but I am trying, God willing.

 

CAREER

I believe I mentioned in an earlier post that I am currently doing my NYSC, which ofor those who are not aware, means National Youth Service Corps, which is the national service that Nigerian graduates partake in for a year. So, at the moment, I am currently serving in Punch Newspapers which is such a full circle moment for me. One of the very first newspapers I ever read was Punch. In fact, I used to read Saturday Punch and Sunday Punch more than any other paper because they had stories and they were just more my speed. So, it is just so amazing that I get to work and write for Sunday Punch. God is such a comedian and I love it. It can be stressful and to be honest, working in a Nigerian office, – especially after experiencing working in the UK – takes some getting used to but I am taking it all in stride and doing my best to keep working and just being the very best I can.

 

DATING

So, dating in Lagos has been so interesting to me. Lol. I was in a relationship for about 3 years. So, this was like from when I was 17 to 20 years old. It took a while to get over that relationship because that was my first serious committed relationship. I mean, I saw myself getting married to this guy and having all his babies but that did not work out and I really really lost myself. So, my experience of early getting back into the dating scene has been in Lagos. I mean, I did a little bit of it in the UK but now, it is different because I tend to be out of the house more than I ever really have. I am still just at the entry of dating but so far, it has been interesting meeting and talking to people. It can be scary though because I have noticed that people tend to be really dishonest about themselves in this town so, you never really know if someone is being genuine with you. It is really about being careful and I am trying to do that while having fun.

 

ME

I have been so good. I think, in the last couple of months, I have somehow – without even realising – become more confident and happy and just better than I used to be. A friend of mine told me that I am ‘glowing in the chaos’ I truly believe I have God to thank for that. I have to say all glory really belongs to God because He got me out of a really bad rut and I am just generally happy and accepting of things. I try not to stress about things I do not have much control over and just keep it pushing. Mind you, I do not always succeed but I am putting in so much effort into just being happy, honest and free.

 

So, how am I finding 22? 22 has been good to me so far. I do not have much to complain about and a lot to be grateful for. I just hope and pray that this year keeps on coming with the most pleasant surprises, God willing. I cannot wait.