Day 19: I am trying to be more mindful

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We spend so much time worrying about what could be or what has already been that we forgot to enjoy the present moment

So, I realised that I made a boo-boo. I miscalculated the days, so in order to get things on track, I am giving you guys a two-for-one today. This is how I’m learning to deal with my mistakes; when you make one, you do what you can to correct it. 

I want to talk on mindfulness in this post and how it has recently become an important part of my daily life. I am a worrier; always have been. I don’t know how it happened; I don’t know if it’s because I’m an empath. All I know is, for a s long as I can remember, I have always worried about everything.

I worry about my family, my friends, my future, my past and just about everything. I had this stupid theory that if I could just imagine the worst case scenario and prepare for it, I’ll be able to deal with it better when it comes. However, to be honest, that has never really worked because in this case, the torture comes twice. The first torture comes from living it in your mind when you’re preparing for the worst case scenario and the second torture comes when it actually happens. 

Now, in a lot of cases, the worst case scenario doesn’t even happen and so you’ve put yourself through torture all for nothing. What is the key to getting out of all of this? Mindfulness.

The first time I heard about mindfulness was when I was at uni. We had a new VC and he was such a happy-go-lucky guy who was really focused on the concept of mindfulness. Mindfulness is basically the act of focusing your mind on the present. 

We spend so much time worrying about what could be or what has already been that we forget to enjoy the present moment. We forget to enjoy the cool breeze and the sun on our faces. There is a Bible verse that says, “Can worries add a single moment to your life?” And to be honest, when you think about it, it really can’t. As a matter of fact, worrying takes more from your life as you waste so much time doing it. This is where mindfulness comes in as it forces you to live in the present. 

No one can force you to live a mindful life; you have to do it yourself. This is what I am trying to do. It’s not easy, especially when you have a mind like mine that is so troubled. But it’s not impossible. I am trying to do things that force me to live in the ‘now’ and so far, it’s really helped me in becoming less troubled. I can’t wait to fully reach the heights that I can with mindfulness and I hope that this coming year, I’ll be able to improve more on it.